Thursday, May 31, 2007 @ 11:27 AM

how i wish..

i do not want to give a fake smile to anyone..
i do not want to give a fake smile to ma friends..
i do no want to give a fake smile to ma love ones..
but i just have to do it..
inside it hurts..but does anybody even bothers to ask?
noo,cause im a cheerful person no matta what..
laugh in 1 min..
& the next min,i will be thinkin far away..

what can i do w/o you..?
the person who always makes me giggle or smile..
no mattaa how upset i am..
no mattaa how angry i am..
with you arnd, all the probs will go far2 away..
& i can admit that yeay, ma besties made ma day too..
but ure that special sumone..
just by receivin ur msgg,just by hearin ur voice..
ma heart jumps..hw i miss u..
hw i wish that u will nver b far apart..
loving you was all that i wanted..
but i know..i gotta understnd you..
those moments i had with you..
much2 appreciated..
& could nver be 4gotten..

* my days have been good.
its just that sumthings gone missing.
for a week.
attchment has been great so far..
ma babes never fails to make me laugh..
& forevaa land up in trouble with sister.
i had a fruit fight with amirah yesterday durin our break time.
i just couldnt stop laughing & it was damn bloody loud..
idayu was controling herslf..
i burst out laughing like nobodys business..
& this amirah threw grapes at me.
bloody hell. all patients were sleeping.
and we did that. godness.
how we cn make havoc in the ward!

oh well.served urinal at the guys ward on tuesday.
hell yeay. i've gotten a malay guy.
damn,lucky kuhan was arnd.
& thnks so much dude. if nt, i guess i will just run out.
i was blushing like hell lh.
if its an old uncle.i dun even care.
but, its a 30yrold guy.
godness.. how hot ma cheecks can be..
sheesh.
awaiting for friday. inserting uro-sheath..
yeap2.
praying hard not to repeat the same bloody mistake.
cause tcher will be there!

& yeay. i twisted ma ankle..
damn bloody pain. cannot even walk in a proper way.
and 1 part of ma palm bcame swollen. i duunoo why.
but i guess. i knck intoo sumthing..
so kind of mama to massage for me.
but, i still culnd get ma coloured lense.
pissed.pissed.pissed!
so angryy.. sheesh..
i dun care!

i guess, i will be goin out with ma besties today.
yesh. its been longgg since i went out together with them..
=)
miting up with ma primary school matess!
yayness. i guess so. cause im not the one planning..
just following. yeay.
till here.
much more next time round.

=)

Wednesday, May 23, 2007 @ 7:08 PM

imtired

ouh gawd. just let me stay strong.
let me be who i want to be.
dun make me change.
many2 things have been happening lately.
superduper many things.

tcher have been okay today.
morn shift. assisted shower.
all okay. kak nura. shes okay lh.
just okay. sheesh.
tcher talk bout the logbk stuffs.
pening skali kpale..
im just too tired. rest havent been enuff fer me.
*headaches*
seriously, i dun have enuff slip aniwaes.
godness. all the eyebags. alermaks.

while standing at the bustop, there a lady telling me theres a snake.
and i was.. ewww. a black snake at the grass patch area. sucky lh.
fcuk sey. lucky i didnt stand near there.
and as i was walking, all the civil defence guys came out frm
the stnt.
and all staring n smiling away.
& i was lyke an idiot. walkin pass em.shito.
wd the hell.
& this sister.askin to attend the seminar.
damn giler lah!
we arent ANs or staff nursess!
crappy.speaker talk about spine.
wadeva shit it is..
all ma babes were falling asleep..
sheesh!

easy say. i dun understand guys.
some guys are fcker.
if i say i want u to buzz off frm ma lyfe.
jolly well understand it n get away frm me.
& nw messaging me again,askin whu iam.
im nt ur fcking bitch!
dun think im stupid u basterd!
bloody hell, go & get a life!!!

super duper pissed off.
not in a mood.
ppl disturbing. hell!
urghs.

babes have been fyne as always.
sheesh.
as fer boyfie, again, i dun understand.
actualli, bcos of that, it spoils ma day.
jokes or nt? i dunno.

aniwaes, thnks to ma bros.
always there wen i nid advices.
thnks loads.

i nid sum sleep.
toodles.

Saturday, May 19, 2007 @ 3:12 PM

sheesh!

i'am freakin bored. so, i shall blogggg!
saturday afternoon,spent it at homiee!
mummy said wana go outt.
quickkkkk! mendak lh seys..

sheesh! glance through all the photo with ma babes.
guess what. im missing ma dearest rose amira!
miss her lots siaa. damn long didnt talk to her.
babe. rinduu kau sey! dhlah tk kol orng. sheesh!

met up with ain durin sims! yayness. misses her lots too lh.
uhuh. & durin sims training.
i was the oni 1 whu kena onli. pissed!!!
sheesh. nvmrd. but it was damn fun lah.
paisey lh sey. haa
went hme with nisa giler n leena.
huhuhu!

& i misses wearing coloured lenses lh.
urghs! mummy dun allow seyy. sobs.
bingit gituu. urghs! nvrmd.
still got ma transparent lense
haha!

& boyfiie! yay!
not missing. haa. still there n breathing..
sheesh*im bad.
haha. sorryy boyfie!
huhuhuhu!

ohwell. slept at 10 yest. damn earli
cause im damn tired. haha.
didnt conf with ma besties also.
sheesh.

mondae!
its gonna b a new ward.
ohman. gonna miss ward 5.
surgical. blood! blood! blood!
godness. lol.
ohwell. new stuffs cuming up!
=)

this month.i've gotten..
*a new specs.
*a new mp4.
*a new haircut *sheesh,e last was on 1stapril.d-uh!

wad else uh.. a new boyfie?
wahaha. nolaaa. *boyfie nmpk,maut!
hehe. kiddings.
sheesh.

well, i hate ma lecturer to the core!!!
fcukk her siol. cheebyeeee!
ohwell, all ma babes hate you muthafcker.
wahahaha..
but thats the fact..
buzz off. ewwww!

penat lh blog.
aites.
blogggg another day!
toodless!

ILURVEUBOYFIE!

Tuesday, May 15, 2007 @ 10:01 PM

Loveee!

Omg. im super duper tired!
haax. as per always.
werk has been go0d.
perfectly fine.
i just love ma mly ANs..
kak ct,kak hana,kak wahidah,kak shanaz..
u ppl rawks lah.
woohoo. best ANs ever siia.

not including those PCA and PSA..
i love all the ward 5 staffs cn?
except 4 some. lol. *racist!
hahaks!
& to ma gurlfwens in wrd 5..
u ppl just rawk!
made ma day ech day.
thnkkiu soo much!
sayangg same kamoo sume! =)
This gurls are..
*Nicole.
*Leena.
*Amirah.
*Zeenath.
*Rajveen.
*Nisa.
*Aishah*entaa btol ker tk name kau.
*Nazurah.
*ehems,*ct.
*Idayu
*Angeline

lurvee u all hor! =)

just nw did ma critical skills.
i failed BP!
ohnoo. toms. Yeahness.
repeat!
still nt done ma assisted shower.
FRIDAE!
t'cher aiming fer me. go0d.
walauweys. sheesh..
bed-bath with tcher n nicole.
yesh. TROUBLESOME!
ohwell. as long i get my logbk sign.
i dun care. =)

if possible. gonna get all signed!
blah3.
butt, super duper lazyy! haiyah.
its gonna be my last week in ward 5.
sadness! surgical ward, here i come next week.
dammit. more happening lh sey.
3week surgical, go0o poly!!!
alamaks dey.. haiyahs..

THURSDAY!
i will be back in school babeh!
Yeshh ahrr!
muahahaha! i miss school bloody lots lah.
with ma dearies. ain n myraa!
i miss u gurls! gonna mit ain on thurs. =)
hehehe! and we shall crappz n crappz!
woohoo.! can't wait!
SIM TRAINING! ready lh sey. ishhh!

Hokays. enuff about werk and school.
uhuh.
Congratulation to ma bro sid nashoba.
as he has found his miss right.
Huhuhu. well bro, takecare super duper gudcre of her kkays.
jgn nak asyikk tgk pompan lain jek eh.
cocok kan.potek teruss tau. haax! =)
abgg dh cukupp hensem lh.
dun ask me again b4 i smck u yah. haa!

ma sizzies.! i love you gurls muchmuchmuch!
miss you all lh.padahal2. haax.
takperlah,ttap rinduu sgt2. =)

as 4 boyfie.
MIA again, so 4get it.

& abgg mad!
haaahaaa. quick lh find gf..
so diff to choose meh?
want me to helpp anot?? kwang3.
gonna miss abgg!
NS abgg. smagat skit.
haahaa.! takecare broo0s!

enuff lh. tired.
tom afternooniee!
=)

Nytes ppl.!

Wednesday, May 09, 2007 @ 10:28 PM

super duper??

i just feel lyke blogginn todae.
and i shall do it.
well. yeahs.
i feel quite down lately.

counting dwn..
its been 9 days since boyfie cntcted..
haiz. wait n see till when.
i fear of this relationship fallin apart.
i just dun understnd.
but,i will try to understnd.
whats happening? i dunno.
i just dunno.
i dunno how is he?
i dunno has he eaten?
everything, i dunno.
i sucks.i noe.
everyone is happie with their lurve ones.
but, i shall not complain.
aniwaes, i dun mean much to hym.
so,forget it.
it hurts. but, u dun nid to noe why..

i just have been sighin these few days.
the reasons fer doing so?
i dunno.
everything dunno!.
urghs.

tom,morning shift.
confirm super duper tired.
but, nvrmd.
i enjy werkin at alexandra.
yesh. im enjoyin maslf.
to the max.
not lookin at guys lh rajveen!
but, ma darlings!
they are the one whu nvr fail to make me smile or laugh!
miraaa gilers!
haaax.! super duper giler.
thnks gurls. lurve u all lh.

and 1 of ma patient passed awy just nw.
so,we saw the death procedure.
yep2. i just dun feel scared at all.
ive been lukin after her fer a few weeks
since she admited,
chnged her diapers, empty her urinebag.
all sort. so, yeahs.
another farewell.

another malay family. mcm de party sark.
haiyoo. cannot tahan kekek sark with amirah.
i was lyke sayin."Nek, tkmu telan tau gigi palsu"
infrnt of her relatives.
walauwey. tak tahan kekek sark.
idiot seys..amirah ahr.slengehs.
lolx.

yeah. im super duper happie with ma bills.
68 bucks. yesh uh.
surpriseed mummy. yay. i managed.
im hapie cause she praised me. lol.
i loovvee oreos! yeahs.
evry brk.must have oreo!.haax.

notice sumthing.mly fam.
always the guys uh,have to many stuffs to protest.
can i zip ur mouth?
so that u will shuddupp??
tk kire lah mat ke bpk orng ker.
pakcik ker.
dammit lh sey. wadevaa.
doc dh ckap.diam2 jek ah. bising2.
orng dh sakit. btmbh sakit.

and just nw shift was super duper busy.
i wana goo A&E.
confirm gerek gler babs!
next 2 week.will b goin to surgical ward sey.
boreds. whats the outcome.
oh well.

& just nw new admission. this gurl.
she took 44 panadol.!
damn. police case. huhuhu!
30yrold gurl.
u wunt die lh. most 2 most,
u suffer liver probs.
yeahs. crazzie seyys. 30yrold indian gurl.
godness. stupidddd!
& i <3>
so kiut.! =)

& not forgetin. ma 2 lovely gurls.
thnks kiu so much yeahs?
yanaa & khaty?
i own u gurls lots hokays.
the main thingy ish.
thnks super duper loads fer makin me feel betta.
gaining back ma self confidence.
n fer everythingg!
lurveeuggurlsomuchhhhh!
=)

im tired.ppl takecares.
=)

Tuesday, May 08, 2007 @ 10:47 AM

allow me to say this?

i hate u..
i hate u..
i hate u..
I HATE YOU!!
understood???

just fuck off??
please?
so that i wunt b always thinkin of u.
damn!! FCUK!!!
dumbass!

urghs. its a bad start 2dae.
sucky to the max!
wadeva shitt lh.!

u just care fer urslf.
ur frens. dun bother bout me can?
wadeva shitt.

Saturday, May 05, 2007 @ 12:34 PM

im blogging at last.

yeay. im bloggin at last.
after so much incident happening lately.
im so damn2 tired lh sey.

frst of all.i just wana say.
IMISSMYBOYFIIE!
so much.much.much.much.
lamerr nah tk dgr suare dier.
i still love you lh.=)
nvr been rude 2 u sey.
frst n lst tyme.
sowie yeay.
rindduuuu sgt ngn u tau..
bluekks!

hmms.next.
gudbye 2 late mr raj.
its just so sudden n we didnt expected it.
omg.hes gone. he left us.
will always remember hym.
the jokes durin lectures.
the hersheys kisses given to us durin valentymes.
cause all wanted to go hme early sey.
thnks fer everything.
may u rest in peace.

yeay.went to hes funeral the other day.
he passed awy on 1stmay2007.
still rememberd the last phototakin we had wit hym.
memories that will nvr be erased.
so,all the nursing peeps went down.
so the blk was full with nursing gurls n bois.
ppl were all puzzled whats goin on.
tchers frm ite college east went too.
saw the principle too.
went round his coffin.
evry gurl n boi cried. imagine.
godness. tears just run dwn.
i cant do anythin.
it all over.so let it pass.

ma attchment?
everythings goin on fyne.=)
there is just many conflicts goin on.
the best fwen to go with is Leena.
the rest is a lil bit off.
soo,yeay. many things just happen n i shall not elaborate mre.
twice.the comote went up.
i was in a state of shck sey.
if the patients fall. nicole!
we are dead. definately dead.confirm.

and yeah. this fckuin 20yrold minah.
she sucks lyke hell.
fcuk.lyk her father hosp.
go chnge hosp also we dun care.
go to hell with u.
so fcukin attitude prob.
buzz off! urghs. realli sia.
ferget it.
kak zahira is still the best!
we miss u lh akaks.=)
get well soon.=)

hmms.blog sooner or later.
mummys callin me fer lunch!.
toodless!