Tuesday, September 22, 2009 @ 10:57 PM

Hello Lovelies.

My dearest boy is back,

and right now, i'am missing him once again.

3 more days and he will be back.

more of jalan raya la!

love.love.love. (:

going out with sister again this saturday.

let's hope it would be a super super great one!

anyway,

1st day was spent rotting at home,

and i didnt even wear my costume.

and i didnt even get collection la.

keluarkan duit ader lagi!

aiyoyo!

2nd one, gereks.

thankyou bf. (:

send him back to camp with kakak & BIL.

can't wait to fetch him back this friday!

i need my sleeep.

sleeeep.

goodnight!

Thursday, September 10, 2009 @ 8:52 PM

<3!

sweet dreams, and a beautiful nightmare.

somehow, i was digging for some raya songs.

and poooof.

pictures of us.

memories.

ily b.

Wednesday, September 09, 2009 @ 11:10 PM

thank you.

work was dread.

serious.

new AN,from agency.

minah lookalike,but not.

she's nice la.

baby called just half hr ago.

was so happy + EXCITED!
really2 missing him seh.

yana gf & iin came over.

to accompany me for buke.

thanks both of you.

appreciate your company.

seriously.

and lastly.

enough of worries,

and i wouldn't want to pick any fights.

bear any grudges.

i'll go with the flow.

i have feelings.

nvrmd, its alright.

sorry & again,

i don't want to bear any grudges.

Boyfren,

i wish to have you back.

like you told me, you wanted to go home.

but,endure alright baby,

although it hurts to see you like dat.

i miss you like crazy.

Tuesday, September 08, 2009 @ 8:42 PM

Nazree, I miss you, effiing much.

Home is super quiet.

Just like ghost town.

If only boy fren were arnd,

he would be the one

i would argue with,

fight with,

all sorts.

and mom would never fail saying this phrase.

" korg asik gadoh je,mcm anjing ngn kucing".

evryday would be the same.

like that.

but now, way way way different.

i'am all alone.

i'am very clingy to boyfren.

his like my oxygen.

i see his face day and night,

he send and fetch me from work each day

when his not tired,

send me to wherever i want to go,

buy me whatever i want.

see, how pampered i am with boyfren?

i would snuggle under his armpit,

and pull his ear lobe,

and pull his elbow fats.

its less than 24 hrs but it seems like eternity.

how am i suppose to stand this for 10 days?

i know, its just 10 days.

to you, but not to me.

its been donkey years since i was last separated from him.

since my late dad left me & mom,

he was the one whom is always there for me,

his my top to the bottom,

he went holidays with me,

he went shopping with me,

he loves camwhoring with me.

he was there for me when ppl humiliate me like nobody business.

he was there to hear my cries,

he was there to cheer me up.

i never felt this way before.

i never appreciate when his there for me.

i never appreciate when stands infront of my eyes.

i regret.

and now, when his gone.

nobody can replace him.

no one.

i'am on my own.

i hate being on my own,

and i hate to be alone.

serious shit i can get depression just being alone.

"you jage diri tau you,jgn nottie2,

kalau i tak penat, i call you,

jgn plak mengadu dgn laki lain yg you sorang"

see, he knows me well.

i hate being alone.

i never want to be alone.

dear god,

please let me stay strong,

please let me endure this 10 days.

please give me all the strength that i need.

i will focus on my work day time.

but, night time, i will definetly be a loner again.

i'll endure all this hardships.

i know i will.

i know i can.

Dearest Boyfrend,

It really felt like hell when you wasn't around.

You know, the journey to Johor was such a sucky one.

Each time i thought if you,tears just roll down like

nobody's business.

I kept quiet most of the time.

Mom kept talking to me, but i just kept on nodding.

the very moment i thought of you again,

again, it came rolling down.

Mom persuaded me, saying,
"Common,Nazree's a big boy,now a man,you should let him go.He'll enjoy once he make new friends"

again,it came down.

I refused to buy anything for breakfast.

She persuaded me again,
"Asal nie, takkan Nazree takder taknak buker plak?"

i really2 had no appetite at all.

I saw Milo Freeze,it reminded me of you,

I saw Top Chocs, it reminded me of you again.

I really2 wish you were there.

No sufferings i had to overcome.

If you were there,you would be the one pushing the cart,

if you were there, you would be the one choosing which colour lense suits

me the best.

If you were there,you would be my everything.

The feeling really sucks seh you.

I'am feeling really2 down & awful.

When i reach home, your helmet reminded me of you,

i saw your bike, i wish you were at home.

just everything.

I can't live w/o Nazree around me.

Monday, September 07, 2009 @ 11:09 PM

bf, i <3 you!

pretty? there milk bottle,safety pin,key,heart, and puting. (:

thanks bf. (:

i can just smile looking at my cute boyfren talking to himself.

he loooks goood with the new haircut.

botak boy.

wasn't really a big issue la.

accompanied him for his haircut,

and the pakcik also join sekaki doing weird styles

before shaving it all off.

his off tomorrow.

so,i'll bid the last goodbye tomorrow morning

while sending him off.

*look, his making me smile again,

testing his 'new' phone,putting his earpiece but

loud speaker,talking to himself*

aiyo.

i really2 hope not to cry tomorrow.

please2, don't cry.

aiyo.

i'am so emotional can?

i dunno la hor why.

after 2 years not being separated.

wherever i go, his with me.

whatever i do, his with me.

and this time round,

i'am all alone.

dear god,

please be the pillar of my strength.

please let time pass by fast.

please let all pleasant things happen.

and lastly,please save him if anything happens.

i'am going to miss him.

and he will be back eve of hari raya.

i love you dude.

please takecare of yrslf and

please be a good boy aite.

i love you, frm the bottom of my heart.

<3!

Saturday, September 05, 2009 @ 12:03 AM

Just 1 thing i need to say,

Please ah, jgn jadik bodoh boleh?

so obvious aku belom dapat uniform???!

pikir aper? nak pergi choose size SSSSSSS pe?

sial ah, aku tau diri aku sape.

tak perlu kau nak cakap!

dgr2 aku chooose SSSSS pe?!

some ppl are just born to be dumb.

tsk3.

what a day.

Tuesday, September 01, 2009 @ 7:00 PM

breakdown soon.

well, the title above shows it all.

i'am so tired.

i'am so exhausted.

mentally,physically,emotionally.

serious shit i'am speaking the truth.

i'am sure gonna have a breakdown real soon.

physical,emotional.

and everything that probly i can list it down.

raya is just round the corner,

and it feels like forever to be sick.

last week was 4 days of fever+sorethroat.

burning like fire.

and this week was like waterpipe coming from my nose.

+ the bad phlegm.

eww.

many things happen at work.

some old haggie doctor, worth it to be called a bastard.

big fat bloody bastard.

its so stressful.

when you get to know,

some nice kind muthafcker in frnt of you,

and when you turn ard,he a really 1 big muthafcker.

backstab everybody that he can.

tsk.

he won't have a peaceful death.

for sure.

enduring all i can.

and this is only the basic.

*huge sighhh*

and having to spent only a week more with him,

is like only a day.

how stressful can it be.

let's test, how i can handle life w/o him arnd.

its going to have such a huge impact on me for sure i can assure you.

its gonna be sucky like forever.

aarrgh!

good day people.

breaking fast already.