its love,hate and just everything

work can never not be tired!

2010-05-08T22:31:00.002+08:00

its a random update cause i logged on to my lappy!

i miss blogging, but i simply don't have the time.

From mon to fri, working.

by the time got back, chinese dramas, off to bed.

half of sat & sun, leisure time,

provided bf either morning shift or off days.

For eg, this week both sats and suns his working noon.

so me mati kutu at home.

lucky i have mom and gfs to keep me company.

if not, i can never stop complaining how boredom can kill!

((:

i miss my nurses! planning a bbq or chalet!

hopefully it will happen!

take care all!

blow dusts

2010-03-28T22:22:00.002+08:00

its been super loooooong since i last updated my blog.

so dusty and out-dated..

last week wasn't really good, cause i kept on falling sick!

previous was chest pain and now, food poisoning..

i threw out 10 times, so badly that each time i threw out,

i teared so badly!

i hate to vomit, its so disgusting la!

seriously.

tummy still in pain, only no more puking.

lucky thing.

MC for tomorrow, cause sat night spent at SGH.

gotten injection,

its swollen till now!

and this morning was down w fever,

38.5 la eh!

pester bf not to work, and takecare of me,

yet, he said, canoooot, idiot!

i want to go out with my friends!

time for medicines!

tummy pain already!

good day everyone!

bay-bee, sayang!

2010-02-09T22:57:00.003+08:00

Bay-bee is out for night training.

will be back only at 5 in the morning,

and the got the whole wed to himself.

work suck to the core today.

throat is hurting like hell again.

feel like putting my hand inside,

and have it scratched.

well. something interesting happened today,

bay-bee got off from work early.

and i knew he reached my house already,

so i don't bother asking whether he would be fetching me or not

cause he ain't feeling well either.

and i trained back myself back home.

the very next thing when i reach my blk,

i searched for his bike, nowhere to be found.

and i knew it!

he must be odw to fetch me back from work!

shucks!

i called and called and called.

" ah you, i kat lib nie"

and i was like, "you, i'am at home you, at home".

he replied," jgn tipu la you, faster come down"

then i shouted to mama, "mama! naz dont believe me"

ah, then he believed me.

sorry la bay-bee.

he wanted to surprise me,

but ended up. booo!

bee, next time,

do some research okey?

ily. kinda funny though.

heeeeeeeeeeeeeee! (:

after such a hectic and tiring day,

bee made me laugh la.

i hope to have a better day tomorrow.

weekends are loooovee..

2010-02-09T00:01:00.003+08:00

I can't sleep as i had a 20mins nap during lunch break,

and 1/2hr nap after reaching home from work.

and my eyes refused to close.

so here i am, doing whatsoever stuffs that i can do.

i miss blogging world.

how i wish i would have all the time in the world to

blog each day.

well. let's start off with WORK on MONDAY.

which i will definitely have Monday blues!

dragging my both foots to work.

and the daily routine goes in a circle once again.

bought goodies for all the beloved staffs in ROOM 9!

As if i'am the one celebrating CNY. HAHAHA.

well, busy as always,

there will never be a day with Jurong Less then 200 patients

each single day.

+ all the stucked-up attitude.

Urgh, Pull me away from all those kind of people around me.

Anyhoos, the BF got home early today.

Never he got home that early.

And we rode off to Jurong Pt to pick up his SE phone.

His sick once again ,and as usual,

he will 'perintah' me. irritate me, which makes me

wanna punch him

But, he realise that his doing all that,

and still have the cheek to smile sheepishly at me.

*geram kan*

and i'am down with sore throat again,

and eating rubbish at work!

famous amos, crackers, list goes on & on.

tell me, how can i not grow fat working there?

stress uh. LOL!

well, Sunday was well-spent.

Wanting to drag BF for breakfast at Mac/KFC/LJS?

As usual, the princess takes an hour to dress and such,

by the time, it was noooon!

so we proceeded with the next plan,

headed off to Changi Village,

Nasi Ayam Penyet sedappp!

then off to Changi beach.

boring la. but, kena accompany also.

then next off, Robinson Expo Sale.

sukeeeeeeee, bought slippers only.

next to marina sq, just for a stroll,

and we saw Saff bike. huahua.

dating uh at marina sq? ahaha. (:

and home sweet home.

but went out again.

run errands for mom.

drove the car, shengshiong, ntuc,

bonkers.

anyhoooos. bed time. ((:

a gr8 weekend spent,

thanks bf.

i miss the 3 cute kitties!

its such a tiring week.

2010-01-28T21:50:00.002+08:00

Tuesday was a killer baby.

didn't want to go, but was told to go.

and a must to go. oh well, i overcame in anyway.

now bf doesn't need to get back to camp.

so i get to see his face each day.

heeee. sukeeeee sekali. (:

tomrrow appraisal.

bonus so boring like giler.

5th, $$ come rolling in.

sukeeeee!

okey, super short update.

not much time i can spare.

gg to bed.

goodnight!

PMU!PMU!

2010-01-21T18:24:00.002+08:00

i'am back blogging finally.

i miss blogging.

i simply don't have the time at all.

i don't even know what i'am busy with.

a day at work has drain off all my energy.

*yawns*

feeling very very very tired.

feeling so sleeeeeeeeepy.

anyhoos, work stress+crazy as usual

when can SATA Jurong have little people coming.

super tired + not enough man power+ i need a break!

planning a holiday with Leena & Myrah Ong.

Hopefully it will happen.

Either Bali or Phuket.

We'll consider 1st. can't really wait cause we really need a break!

LOL.

bf, bring me out for photogrphy session please?!

sooooon eh eh? (:

PMU keper boy?! lol

i'am loving the days.

2010-01-04T23:30:00.002+08:00

hello dear friends. (:

sorry for the super late updates.

because i have been so busy at work.

being tortured like mad.

and i'am so tired, lethargic and the list goes on & on.

i have been going back late,

all thanks to work.

instead of 5.30, now 6.3o.

i'am so tired.

my energy has all drained out.

i can't wait for my both in-charge to be back.

and i've already told my manager i'am going for 10 days leave.

and 10 days MC.

yet, he could still laugh at me.

i'am struggling, drowning.

anyone care to save me from all this shits?

anyways, he gave me a pat on the shoulder.

he told me i was doing well without both in charge around.

i have never been so tired & stress out.

i need energy,please come to me?

anyways, boyfriend had 10 days of leave.

he promised me to study at home and yet, he didn't.

i didn't know what got him so busy.

anyways, thank you very much boyfriend for fetching me

from work.

and waiting for me long enough to finish my bloody pilling up work.

and boyfriend gonna have his POC soon.

and time flies when you're enjoying every single moments of it.

i want to have a day outing with boyfriend to Sentosa.

i want to have a day outing with boyfriend & girlfriend to Cashbox Studio.

i have so many things in mind which i hadn't achieve yet.

in my mind now,

i need a super duper puper looooong rest.

hopefully.

dear 2010, please be good to me.

as 2009 was a little devastating.

seriously it was.

anyways, 2010..

1.To save enough money & go for a holiday to Aussie with Mom.

2.To save enough money & go for a holiday to Bali/Genting with GF&BF.

3.To get a bike license by the end of the year.

4.To upgrade myself definitely.

5.To open a joint account with BF.

6.To have better understanding with each other.

list still goes on actually, but, i can't remember.

need to note it down. :)

the heart-breaker 2009..

1.Daddy pass away on 09-01-09.

2.BF got into an accident which cause him a missing tooth.

3.At the end of 09,gotta know bf hid something major behind my back.

(nearly broke-off)

4.A good friend involved too,yet, tsk, speechless.

5.Had so many tiffs with BF.

6.Nearly work with HPB,but nope.

7.I cried the whole day when BF got enlisted for the 1st day.

more of it actually.

too sweet to remember it all.

& too bitter to let it be thrown away.

its life.

i'am hoping for a better life.

better future.

everything to be better.

and to dear BF,

if i hadn't been a good gf,i'am sorry.

i ain't a perfect girl.

i jumped easily,bite your ears.

pinch you elbow,tickle your armpits.

but yet, i love you w all my heart.

being unfaithful didn't even crossed my mind.

meeting other guys behind your back,never ever.

for the very 1st time,

you hurt me so badly,very badly.

i hope,its a learning experience for you.

don't involve yourself in other's relationship.

i hope you learnt your lesson.

and the scar you left behind is healing very slowly.

work tomorrow.

goodnight everyone.

love,love,love& love.

((:

tiring but FUN weekends.

2009-12-16T22:36:00.003+08:00

Hello all.

there's huge amount of pictures to be uploaded.

soon, bcause i simply doesnt have the time.

weekends went over to melacca.

then car-o-key with gf & bf on monday night.

which is their pre anniversary.

before that, to botanic garden,took picture.

pre-anniversary celebration.

and fana's bdae.

and then off to seoul garden.

i gained 2 kilos sia.

die2,goonaa shed the 2 kg off!

melacca trip,ate alot too.

bf gained tooo!!

must run this weekends.

hurhurhur. (:

update more soon!

saturday kills!

2009-12-05T17:07:00.003+08:00

today is saturday.

and in a few hours time will be out for family dinner at chaichee seafood rest.

and after work back home,poured heavily sey!

damn! so stood still at home, and bored shyt trust me!

yest fetch bf back frm camp.

accpny him ate macd.

w his crazy bunch of friends.

and, will update soon.

i'am loving to drive! yay!

TGIF tomorrow! (:

2009-12-03T21:46:00.001+08:00

TGIF tomorrow! and i simply can't wait for the weekends.

working is forever tiring me.

sheesh.

can i not get tired from working?

each day tires me, and shagged enough.

forget it,it would be all gone once i get to see my mentel bf.

gonna drive and fetch him from camp tomrw.

and probly high chances of camwhoring session with his friends.

bcause all are em are so photogenic la!

and they're such a camera freak!

a short update.

goodnight loves. (:

not-so-perfect month.

2009-11-30T22:35:00.003+08:00

Hello everyone.

At last i'am back with a new post and a new skin.

it made my head spins,changing the codes and such is such a

difficult thing to do.

and say hello to my new baby.

Canon EOS 500D.

i'am so in love with this baby.

its roughly around 2 weeks old.

i was so attracted to this DSLR since i borrowed

my cuz bros canon Canon EOS 50d.

solid molid.and i decided to get 1 for myself.

and since bbylove love photography,

he can also use it.

although 50d was way much better,

i still love my 500d.

50d cost 3k. gosh, way to much.

this is good enough for me and im loving it so much!

and.

life has been pretty fine.

the ups, the downs.

as usual.

but i still have baybee & gf.

i'am staying strong to overcome all this craps.

work has been tiring,serious shit it has been.

shagged and exhausted.

still,it has to go on.

can't wait for next month.

exciting things going on..

-Gf & Iin 2nd anniversary.

-Boyfrns Bdae.

-A trip to zoo or night safari with bf & gf.

-New year & new resolution.

and the list goes on and on.

i can't wait. excited sungguh!

i need my sleep for now.

soon i'll update.

takecare loves.

well spent sunday with family!

2009-11-02T20:39:00.002+08:00

weekends was great,awesome.

saturday was half a day spent at work.

and the 2nd half, to Grand Corpthorne Waterfront Hotel.

for dinner & dance! (:

it was an awesome night la.

got 5obucks voucher for carrefour.

and the very next day.

my dearest bf spent it all on his barang2 for camp.

since the hotel was just bside zouk.

kecoh! Halloween party was going on.

saw lots and lots of ghost!

sister was having dnd too!

but her's was at pan pacf.

sunday,work up early.

off to take camera. and to suntec.

to care-four!

box so full!! and i had to carry such a heavy camera bag & 3 lense!

then back home.

off to b.b to take farisha qistina ice cream cake.(:

then in a while.

party started. cutting of cake and blowing candles.

opening of present.

well,another well spent sunday with family.

suke sangat.

okey,

this week im full of things on my mind!

need to pack my things for my holiday trip.

need to buy backpack.

study for exams this wed.

go to Singtel to change phone plan

+ add in autoroam!

so that i can msg bf when im away.

and list goes on and on...

i'am done updating.

goodnight homies.

baybee nazree is <3!

2009-10-24T23:32:00.003+08:00

Hello World~!

its been super long since i last blogged and

i miss blogging.

loads and loads of story to share and tell actually,

but well,

all have been kept aside.

currently awatiting sister to come over,

as tomorow morning, we'll go to the cemetry to visit dad.

i miss him. alot.

put that aside,

boyfren is out for deployment,

and i miss him!!

it less than 24hrs dah rindu mcm nak giler.

anyhoos, i love my hotstuff effing much.

thankyou bay-bee nazree for everything.!

please don't get jealous so easily okeh?

ilysm! ((:

ohkay, random update.

bay-bee Nazree is <3!

2009-10-11T22:34:00.004+08:00

thank you bay-bee Nazree.

from the bottom of my heart.

sorry for all the tickles and the pinching.

sorry for the countless moodswings,

and sorry for all the naggings.

i love love love you!

thanks for bringing me to the arcade.

and i love the baby pooh.

afterall,

i love you, deeeeeep deeeeeep!
(:

i want you for the rest of my whole life.

love you b!

thank you for all sacrifices made for me.

you're the best one ever.

what a day.

2009-10-08T23:44:00.000+08:00

sometimes, ppl can just ignore you when you send billions of msges.
just ignore.
i repeat, ignore.

i'am tired.
serious shit tired of all this.

lacking of love,
anybody?

goodnight.

(:

2009-09-22T22:57:00.003+08:00

Hello Lovelies.

My dearest boy is back,

and right now, i'am missing him once again.

3 more days and he will be back.

more of jalan raya la!

love.love.love. (:

going out with sister again this saturday.

let's hope it would be a super super great one!

anyway,

1st day was spent rotting at home,

and i didnt even wear my costume.

and i didnt even get collection la.

keluarkan duit ader lagi!

aiyoyo!

2nd one, gereks.

thankyou bf. (:

send him back to camp with kakak & BIL.

can't wait to fetch him back this friday!

i need my sleeep.

sleeeep.

goodnight!

<3!

2009-09-10T20:52:00.001+08:00

sweet dreams, and a beautiful nightmare.

somehow, i was digging for some raya songs.

and poooof.

pictures of us.

memories.

ily b.

thank you.

2009-09-09T23:10:00.002+08:00

work was dread.

serious.

new AN,from agency.

minah lookalike,but not.

she's nice la.

baby called just half hr ago.

was so happy + EXCITED!
really2 missing him seh.

yana gf & iin came over.

to accompany me for buke.

thanks both of you.

appreciate your company.

seriously.

and lastly.

enough of worries,

and i wouldn't want to pick any fights.

bear any grudges.

i'll go with the flow.

i have feelings.

nvrmd, its alright.

sorry & again,

i don't want to bear any grudges.

Boyfren,

i wish to have you back.

like you told me, you wanted to go home.

but,endure alright baby,

although it hurts to see you like dat.

i miss you like crazy.

Nazree, I miss you, effiing much.

2009-09-08T20:42:00.004+08:00

Home is super quiet.

Just like ghost town.

If only boy fren were arnd,

he would be the one

i would argue with,

fight with,

all sorts.

and mom would never fail saying this phrase.

" korg asik gadoh je,mcm anjing ngn kucing".

evryday would be the same.

like that.

but now, way way way different.

i'am all alone.

i'am very clingy to boyfren.

his like my oxygen.

i see his face day and night,

he send and fetch me from work each day

when his not tired,

send me to wherever i want to go,

buy me whatever i want.

see, how pampered i am with boyfren?

i would snuggle under his armpit,

and pull his ear lobe,

and pull his elbow fats.

its less than 24 hrs but it seems like eternity.

how am i suppose to stand this for 10 days?

i know, its just 10 days.

to you, but not to me.

its been donkey years since i was last separated from him.

since my late dad left me & mom,

he was the one whom is always there for me,

his my top to the bottom,

he went holidays with me,

he went shopping with me,

he loves camwhoring with me.

he was there for me when ppl humiliate me like nobody business.

he was there to hear my cries,

he was there to cheer me up.

i never felt this way before.

i never appreciate when his there for me.

i never appreciate when stands infront of my eyes.

i regret.

and now, when his gone.

nobody can replace him.

no one.

i'am on my own.

i hate being on my own,

and i hate to be alone.

serious shit i can get depression just being alone.

"you jage diri tau you,jgn nottie2,

kalau i tak penat, i call you,

jgn plak mengadu dgn laki lain yg you sorang"

see, he knows me well.

i hate being alone.

i never want to be alone.

dear god,

please let me stay strong,

please let me endure this 10 days.

please give me all the strength that i need.

i will focus on my work day time.

but, night time, i will definetly be a loner again.

i'll endure all this hardships.

i know i will.

i know i can.

Dearest Boyfrend,

It really felt like hell when you wasn't around.

You know, the journey to Johor was such a sucky one.

Each time i thought if you,tears just roll down like

nobody's business.

I kept quiet most of the time.

Mom kept talking to me, but i just kept on nodding.

the very moment i thought of you again,

again, it came rolling down.

Mom persuaded me, saying,
"Common,Nazree's a big boy,now a man,you should let him go.He'll enjoy once he make new friends"

again,it came down.

I refused to buy anything for breakfast.

She persuaded me again,
"Asal nie, takkan Nazree takder taknak buker plak?"

i really2 had no appetite at all.

I saw Milo Freeze,it reminded me of you,

I saw Top Chocs, it reminded me of you again.

I really2 wish you were there.

No sufferings i had to overcome.

If you were there,you would be the one pushing the cart,

if you were there, you would be the one choosing which colour lense suits

me the best.

If you were there,you would be my everything.

The feeling really sucks seh you.

I'am feeling really2 down & awful.

When i reach home, your helmet reminded me of you,

i saw your bike, i wish you were at home.

just everything.

I can't live w/o Nazree around me.

bf, i <3 you!

2009-09-07T23:09:00.003+08:00

pretty? there milk bottle,safety pin,key,heart, and puting. (:

thanks bf. (:

i can just smile looking at my cute boyfren talking to himself.

he loooks goood with the new haircut.

botak boy.

wasn't really a big issue la.

accompanied him for his haircut,

and the pakcik also join sekaki doing weird styles

before shaving it all off.

his off tomorrow.

so,i'll bid the last goodbye tomorrow morning

while sending him off.

*look, his making me smile again,

testing his 'new' phone,putting his earpiece but

loud speaker,talking to himself*

aiyo.

i really2 hope not to cry tomorrow.

please2, don't cry.

aiyo.

i'am so emotional can?

i dunno la hor why.

after 2 years not being separated.

wherever i go, his with me.

whatever i do, his with me.

and this time round,

i'am all alone.

dear god,

please be the pillar of my strength.

please let time pass by fast.

please let all pleasant things happen.

and lastly,please save him if anything happens.

i'am going to miss him.

and he will be back eve of hari raya.

i love you dude.

please takecare of yrslf and

please be a good boy aite.

i love you, frm the bottom of my heart.

<3!

2009-09-05T00:03:00.001+08:00

Just 1 thing i need to say,

Please ah, jgn jadik bodoh boleh?

so obvious aku belom dapat uniform???!

pikir aper? nak pergi choose size SSSSSSS pe?

sial ah, aku tau diri aku sape.

tak perlu kau nak cakap!

dgr2 aku chooose SSSSS pe?!

some ppl are just born to be dumb.

tsk3.

what a day.

breakdown soon.

2009-09-01T19:00:00.003+08:00

well, the title above shows it all.

i'am so tired.

i'am so exhausted.

mentally,physically,emotionally.

serious shit i'am speaking the truth.

i'am sure gonna have a breakdown real soon.

physical,emotional.

and everything that probly i can list it down.

raya is just round the corner,

and it feels like forever to be sick.

last week was 4 days of fever+sorethroat.

burning like fire.

and this week was like waterpipe coming from my nose.

+ the bad phlegm.

eww.

many things happen at work.

some old haggie doctor, worth it to be called a bastard.

big fat bloody bastard.

its so stressful.

when you get to know,

some nice kind muthafcker in frnt of you,

and when you turn ard,he a really 1 big muthafcker.

backstab everybody that he can.

tsk.

he won't have a peaceful death.

for sure.

enduring all i can.

and this is only the basic.

*huge sighhh*

and having to spent only a week more with him,

is like only a day.

how stressful can it be.

let's test, how i can handle life w/o him arnd.

its going to have such a huge impact on me for sure i can assure you.

its gonna be sucky like forever.

aarrgh!

good day people.

breaking fast already.

Happy TWO years Hunneh.

2009-08-25T23:18:00.002+08:00

time pass by very pass.

super fast,

extremly fast.

today, 2years with love.

still, i'am so deeply in love with him.

upcoming month,

will definately be sucky for me.

his going to leave me.

how?

and raya, dunno will be able to celebrte w him and such?

sadddddddddddddddddd! :'(

how to get over this?

i'am just 1 lucky girl whom he always pampers.

and its not easy for me to get over it.

boyfren, don't leave please??

stupid NS.stupid,stupid.

today, wouldnt be clebrting our 2 years.

instd, sat. all bcause we're too busy with work.

after work. we went to vivo. just a while.

and off to JP, just to buy youghrt.
(:

he promise to bring me out on sunday.

to makeup for today.

thankyou syg.(:

tsk. off to sleep.

tired.

tired,busy!

2009-08-18T22:23:00.003+08:00

Hello. Hello World.

Life has been pretty busy lately.

there is so many events happening lately,

and ramadan is coming any day from now.

and its gonna be a very sad 1.

1st time w/o dad after 19 years of my life.

well. i'am super exhausted and gonna fall sick anytime.

i didn't have enough sleep due to GILALAPIS.

4 disturb nights.

having diffcult time to wakeup.

sleeping super late.

scarifice just for GILALAPIS!

even helped mom baked till 4am in the morning.

such a dread oh-kayy.

having to work the next day,its really super tiring.

and, bad news, my 1 and only staff nurse had a bad fall,

and needed to be admitted.

she had a really2 bad fracture.

ohdear.and. we're on our own.

and i'am confident enough,

we can fight those battle on our own.

i just love my colleagues.

serious shit. i'am nothing without them.

and i never regret working there.

thank god for just eveything.

i'am bless to have a good boss,fun manager,

and super gereks kaki colleagues.

even the doctors.

appraisal this friday,my manager sounded me just now.

and he scolded me for not looking at him while answering.

tsk. lame la.

this past 2 weeks, i don't have any time for myslf.

to pamper myslf for shopping, or even window shop.

just tooooo busy.very2 busy.

off to sleep. another day of work.

and payday!

gonna manja my bf and bring him out for shopping!

bcause, his gonna serve the nation soon, very soon.

and i'am on my own. :(

see the moon & the stars

2009-08-08T01:00:00.001+08:00

Things change..

and, People change too.

and i fear of changes the most.

seriously.

changes for the BETTER,definately looking forward to it.

changes for the WORST thing on earth, not at all.

i've always hated that part the most.

i've just notice,all my friends,

whom have years of relationship,

separated,just like that.

people come and go that easily.

indeed,most of my nursing friends,

have someone new.

those with the longest relationship,broke off.

just like that.

i'am scared.

but i shouldn't be thinking about

all this.

*huge sigh*

today was proably wasn't my day at all.

seriously.

boyfriend had to wake up early as his from my place,

and travel all the way to Changi, his workplace.

early in the morning already pester me to change his dressing.

while he happily eating his nestum & reading papers.

tsk. so at work was quite fine.

loads of complicated cases and loads of phonecall were given out.

till at around 4 o'clock, i felt so dead.

so freaking tired+having issues with gigi bogeh.

so freaking irritating, he asked me along,

to his friend solemnization ceremony at Tamp.

he knows his dear gf work at Jurong East, how far i need to travel

+ peak hours, getting squeeze and such.

and i was thinking, and thinking not wanting to follow.

and this afternoon, i decided to tag along,

without the bike, w the MRT.

instead, he kept on insisting going with his friends.

die2 also with his friends,

so, tell me guys, what's the purpose of asking me along,

when i decided to tag along, he insist on going with his friends?

how?

well. boiling point, as he tested my patience since yesterday.

from the day of the accident, he was treated like A PRINCE!

i repeat, PRINCE!

this one cannot, that one cannot, take this, take that.

i jolly well shut my mouth and do it since i pitied him.

woah, 4days straight, till yesterday, cannot stand it sia.

then kept on saying, "sikit2 nak marah"

wth? you wouldn't want to listen to me,

if i say no, still do it,and failed.

see, always never listen to me.

pissed off+ so frigging irritated!

phhhhhheww!

anyway, i can't be bothered.

stupid nyoyas impatient nak mampos,

kept on testing my patience.

hell sia.

while other, pleasant.

super nice.

how i wish all patients would be that nice.

and, REC Company, all the employees came for HEP B.

11 of them. Me & Kearis, marathon oi!

gerek.com.sg. injectttt people. hurhurhur.

tomorrow is another working day,

and god, please make tomorrow a very pleasant one.

i'am so tired,fatigue,lethargic.

all the word i could explain for.

i wish for a loooooong holiday can?

fat hope.

at the very least, 2 days off.

Sunday&Monday, thanks to National Day.

Planning to go to Metro Sale tomorrow with the GF&Iin.

Hope so. Plan to.

And night time, fetch mom from baking studio.

and jyea,

WE'RE HAVING A SO CALLED BAZAAR AT SINGAPORE EXPO!

NEXT WEEK,DO COME DOWN & SUPPORTGILALAPIS.

MUCH APPRECIATED FOR THAT!

ITS MEGA RAYA EXPO SALE-MEGAEXPRESS.

13.14.15.16.

YOUR PRESENCE WOULD BE GREATLY APPRECIATED!

THANYOU!

so, come okeh people.

can order cake lapis for hari raya.

and 100% salivating.

guarantee.

i miss my nursing girls.

gossips,stories to share,truckloads of it.

i miss my AH girls too.

Esp the Ong's Family.

Tsk, Memories will always remain as memories.

have a good day guys.

and happy holidays.

NDP 2009 was 1 of the best show's ever in history.

i enjoyed the preview to the very end.

10 stars and 2thumbsup.

driving home after ndp was mad!

LOL.

1st frightening experience.

2009-08-03T23:20:00.005+08:00

Hello to All.

i'am just randomly updating this blog of mine.

i need to wake up early tomorrow all because nobody

will be sending me to work.

tsk.

today is such a bad bad bad day.

Bf got into an accident.

i was at work,calling some patients up,

to collect their reports and such,

and suddenly," shut up & move ya body..."

and my phone started ringing, tsk.

forgotten to turn it to silent,

and the very next thing is,

i saw boyfrns picture.

and my heart started to jump!

1st thing i pick up,
"hello, you, kenape you"

bcause it so random to get his calls early in the morning!

only mama calls me.

even he rarely msg me when he reach work.

and this few days, i always told him,

msg me when he reach, out of a sudden.

and yea, i know what the reason to it.

and bf replied me, "you, i accident uh you,kt Ecp,..blah3"

and i was like,"HUH?!! what happen you."

random sia, and all my colleagues approach me,

"you okeh Juliana?"

my eyes was so watery sia.

damn. then i told him i wanna come over,and he refused to let me la!

and i strted calling my mom who had a shocked and kept grumbling

wther his sleepy or wht la.

then, next,called Yana. damn.

i feel that the chair im sitting on was on fire.

i cant sit still.

she told me to calm down, still i couldnt.

and nxt, called bf mommy,

1st time, cnt get thrgh.

next 1, got thrgh.

and i asked," cik, naz ader call cik?"

she said, tkder, asal.

and i started stuttering, urms, urms,

tkder pape.

and she said, cakapla, asal.

so ya, blaah3.

all so kanchiong.

i msged him, no reply.

stress gile. i dunno how the situation was seh.

and then he called me up after the bike was towed and such,

ambulance, TP came.

its such a frightening experince for me.

its all fated, all we can do, to accept it and learn frm mistakes.

and i quickly applied for time off, and rushed home to take the car,

and zoooom off to fetch him to the hospital.

another random thing, i manage to drove myslf from clementi all the way to simei.

i was reciting prayers tons and tons.

i was so worried, i feel like just taking an airplane to simei.

and yea,manage to arrive safely.

fetched him and off to CGH!

Muyas was at some called triage!

and as usual, when the best kakis meet up,

kecohs!

waiting hr was a- ohkay. not really that bad.

so frigging cold can?

aiyo.

then did dressing, off from the place, and went to his workplce.

changi.

sent his MC, timesheet and such.

and off to tamp to submit timesheet.

meet his mommy.

then off to send her home,

and finally home.

like i said, a fulfilled time off.

what a day.

i'am so worried, bf cant even eat la.

haiyo. so pampered i tell you.

ask his mommy, tsk.

cooked for him mushroom soup, tk suker,

my lil two boys swallow it up,

ask mummy to buy chicken mushroom,

cook again, still. 50 50 wanna eat.

so, feed w straw.

tsk. how to get well?

goodnight homies.

tc bf, ride carefully next time and remember to recite prayers b4 moving off.

love the weekends.

2009-07-27T23:34:00.003+08:00

my weekends was well spent with the love ones.

great weekend although all of us were either so tired or sick.

still, it was a super duper gr8 one. (:

i need to do something with the hair.

sooooo the irrits.

soon. gonna get it rebonded and then keep my loooong fringe again!

tsk. must2.

i miss being preety la!

now so the oldie facey. tsk. getting old.

haiyer.

and i miss my nurses friends.

alot sia. tsk. esp AH members.

we had this suntec food fair.

and it wasn't really gr8 like last few months in expo.

tsk. boring this time round.

and shopping ard suntec and marina sq.

sat w gf &iin. then went makan with sister&babygirl.

tsk, she's scared of fireworks la.

aiyo.

and sunday, brought the 2 kids out. happy la they all.

i drove. of course la happy.

bought em to toyrus,arcde. aiyo.
PENGSAN!

eat macdonald. tsk3.

andddddddddd.

i'am so satisfied with the weekends.

<3.

get well sooon my dearest gf. (:

Haaaapppy Day! (:

2009-07-19T17:23:00.006+08:00

a week of work,as usual.

tiring like forever la.

tsk, what to do. *DrLee's favourite phrase*

well, still waiting patiently for my pay to be in.

hopefully soon.

i need to get presents!

for 1 of my gf, eleena.

which her b'dae falls today and she treated us,me &zia to swensens!

haha.

for nazree's mummy,which falls tomorrow,

and for bibik which falls on tuesday.

just too many bdae round the corners.

tsk. how? luckything pay is sooon in.

so all the presents would be belated.

and early next month would be sister's birthday.

tsk. how?

neeed to save up lor.

i want to eat fish&co leh?

how?

annnnnd,

swensens with the girls was super gr8!

freaking best giler mcm nak rak lor.

we had so much laughter, that all our tummies were so painful.

and we decided to stop for a min, but, failed.

zia taught tieing cherry stick to a knot,

and we tried, and we played cheat!

hahaha. esp eleena.

tsk3.

and cherry roll to zia when i tried plucking the stick out.

hua,hua,hua. just too much incident happen la.

we were so bloated i tell you.

its like, 3x big my tummy was.

lucky thing, next day, it was back.(:

and working the next day was tiring.

but, fun la.

i forgetten to bring my hp along.

*bad memory* tsk3.

lucky thing, work was half a day lor.

and this bf, PEMALAS BESAR.

called him to fetch me bcause i got lots of things to bring hme.

shoes, baju&suar. still refused.

so i said," you don't want to fetch me right,im not going to see fireworks"

and then, auto-matic. ok2,i fetch you.

ha! don't playy2 ok ass!

and yea. we headed to marina, after my short nap.

gereks,dpt tidoooo!

we climbed the rochor bridge there.

siak, kaki penat.

and nice view lor.

fireworks nice.

gf got to see la. hmmz. next 2 weeks will b my turn.

camwhore, batt died. ass.

met gf after that,ate KFC!

and then to arcade.

i wanted to take the mini simulator.

bf kasi, so happy oi. haha. toooot.

and played arcade. brought hme a lying pooh.

cute! (:

happy2 day. (:

thanks nazree! (:

2009-07-06T20:19:00.002+08:00

right. thanks.

i got s-e-v-e-n days of MC.

aper macam?

mau celebrate atau mau sedih?

pathetic la that doc.

lives the same block as me somemore.

IRRITATING!

takboleh angs sia that irrits.

grrrrr.

so whatever issit, ppl die2 have to hear that ass.

i just had a pathetic sore throat and flu.

thats all?

nvmrd. its rare i can get 7 days of mc.

and no pay! darn it la.

at the very least, last month pay could cover.

sheesh.

ok, lazy to blog so much.

this bf, dunno what he wants to do with his bike.

tsk.

goodday. be sick, and tell doc you got runny nose&sorethrt,

cnfrm2.

7 days.

tsk3.

(:

2009-07-03T21:10:00.002+08:00

Hello. BITCHES.

tsk3.

Yesterday, after work, headed to JP.

for a dinner date with Eleena, my gf no 2.

tsk. it was great. total madness sia.

we walked around, eye-washed.

on stuffs i wanted of course.

boleh jadik gila sia!

so, tomorrow, i'am asking Nazree to come along.

so that i can shop more, bcause he got his pay.

and i hadn't got mine.

so frigging long giler.

tsk.

biase uh, Nazree pamper aku oi.

so please, don't be jealous bitches.

probly this month pay would be a little higher la.

i guess.

i can't wait! tsk.

so i can bring my loves to shop,shop,shop and enjoy life.

tsk. no forgetting, my mama too.

tsk.

i'am so so so sexcited.

working was great.

had to communicate w thais.

can make me go crazy. hahaha!

tiring day la.

Nazree said we can go JP today.

then his bikey2 lambat uh chnge this that.

nonsence.

he promise me tomorrow.

hehehehe.

so, after work, jrg pt!

i love my love.

thanks liyana.

i'll treat you once i get my pay.

you're rubbish.

2009-06-29T22:25:00.004+08:00

thanks to just 1 fucker.

and that fucker is you.

well. bitches, are everywhere.

tsk. what to do.

population is growing.

well, no one will appreciate what i did.

never. ever.

instd, still siding over the other party.

thanks joy.

god put me through lots of test.

god taught me how to be patience could bring good to everyone.

and i did.

people testing my patience, i bear w it.

everyone tested.

every single one.

and lastly, to a human being created by god.

he tested my patience to the very end.

to the little bit that i had left hanging.

just a thin piece of thread.

and,he made me lose it.

thanks.

although my day suck like hell.

i manage to smile, and rather not put probs to work.

and, i look fckin distorted today.

and all thanks to you.

will you ever realise it? never can realise it at all.

fight fight fight back is all you do.

even for some bloody outsider.

thanks.

i believe in karma.

what goes around, comes around.

you can never understand how i feel.

you rather put fcukers 1st, rather than me.

gr8.

thanks for all your 'kind' deeds.

thanks Zulaiha. <3!

2009-06-29T01:29:00.002+08:00

thanks baby, for hearing me out.

thanks for making me feel better.

thanks for scarifing your sleep just for me.

thanks for being on my side,

and lift a heavy sigh off my chest.

i love ya babe.

*hugs*

tsk, such person like you still do exist in this world.

Death is a painful thing.

2009-06-26T21:08:00.004+08:00

R.I.P MJ.

early in the morning, i stepped into the clinic.
everyone was talking about MJ.
tsk. its a sad thing.
in the clinic was a big hooohaa la.

also one of the charlies angel women.
she died bcause of cancer of the anus or rectum.

its a sudden anyways.
tsk.

anyhoos, let's put that aside.
i did my pre-employment checkup.
took my x-ray. which my colleagues took for me.
my eye test, blood test.
lol. paisey sia.
then dr tan called my number nie.
*maluuuuuuuuuuuuuu*

LOL!
can't do my urine FEME. periods.
tsk.
took my blood glucose. 4.4mmol.
lucky thing. phew.

work was pretty fine.
new staff nurse. just grads too.
but she's kinda shy and quiet.

and, 1 preety thing i assure you,
i'am happy with this job.
why? bcause my clinical side colleagues are all gerek kakis!
they're awesome la.

gossip. laugh. all went crazy.
(:

and tomorrow is saturday, cnfrm pack sia.
tsk!

its okeh. although i don't have such a bomb salary.
main thing, i'am happy each morning to go to work.
(:

i miss shopping.
next month is my pay.
boring.

tsk.

Happy 22month B.o.y.f.r.e.n.!
and our friendship has turned 2 few days ago.
i <3 you with all my heart oh-kays? (:

sleeeep. sleeepy lor.
goodnight everyone.

thanks liyana ank juhari for the wish!
(:

tireddddd~

2009-06-22T19:08:00.002+08:00

back from work.
tsk, tired as usual.
what work which is not tired tell me.
tsk.

signed all the papers today.
and jyea, gotten my polo-t.
confirmation only in 3mths time.

so, yeah.
sunday is the only day which can lepak.
and sunday pass super fast.

yesterday was fully spent i could say.
(:

mask fitting at SGH i dunno when.
so the troublesome la.
i love my workmates. seriously.
(:

goooooood day everyone!
(:

yeay!

2009-06-19T23:22:00.002+08:00

tomorrow is saturday and...
i'am working! goooosh.

so saturday means nothing actually,
lucky thing, its half a day.
at least its something,
rather then nothing.

today was hectic,
there was so many health screening for pre-employment.
alot! we went haywire.
it was tiring.

and even a patient shouted at the counter,
while shouting, she cried.
and super demanding patient shouted at my staff nurse
for nothing.
such attention seeker.
tsk3. people like that do exist!

they don't have any patience really.
tsk3. i'am learing how to be patience.
and i can see myself improving.

unless people provoke me.
tsk, i'll shoot back i tell you.

and tomorrow is saturday even.
insyallah it would be somehow a gr8 day.

boyfriend is busy with work and
so am i.
and we hardly have any time to go out.
bcause, by the time we got home,
the bed is already calling for me.

although people say clinic is easy job,
you're wrong,
we have piles of paper work.
this and that.
everything.

tomorrow is gonna be my 5th day.
and payday for me would be next month.
baik uh.

so, no shopping, nothing for me.
tsk! boring.
(:

anyhoos liyana,
its good to be just yourself.
god gave you a heart, and brains.
to think and make a wise decision.
just don't blindly follow what people has to say.
i care for you, and i don't want things to worsen for you.
goooo out w me when y're free! (:

i need to sleep,or else i can't wake up tomorrow!
goodnight everyone.

(:

2009-06-18T21:03:00.002+08:00

i'am so shagged. shagged. shagged.

currently, i'am already working.
TADA! (:

well, enrolled nurse at Jurong SATA.
(:

adapting currently to the enviroment.
nursing mates gerek.com.sg
so far la. tsk3.
diff kind of ppl la seh.
aiyoyo.

but appreciate em la. (:

thanks liyana syg.
for temaning me for interview.
straight away, start work. yea!

goooodnight. (:

Laalaaalaaa

2009-06-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

BBQ at Kampong!

Cat in the Bag not. CAR! (: cute!

i'am currently well from my hot like fire fever.
i feel gooood after recovering.
phew.
and i dunno what's the cause of it anyway.

annnnd.i'am still jobless.
hospitals are busy w H1N1 that they refuse to gimme a call.
damn! what to do.
shall wait. + not give up.
i got the urge to. haiiiiiz.

so freaking stress just thinking about work.
probly i could follow bf into HTA.
be a policewomen. left right left right.
hahahaha. siao.

oh jyea.
went to service bf lil sparky. and now its back to a goody sparky boy.
tsk3. perfecto.
my helmet is ruined. with bf cloth and box.
now its not preety anymore.
and my viser, omg! worst.
scratches everywhere.
aiyaaaaaah.
don't bother la.

and, after servicing, went to haig road,
wanted to buy dinner.
and this bf, went into bus lane.
and TADA..
cisco recorded a videeooo of us.
we're soooo gonna be popular.
and soon, letter of summon will be mailed.
insyallah NOT!
kite doa samer2. tsk3.
bf. bf. aper la.

after that, he went to talk to the mat cisco.
he ask to appeal. siao ah him.
sort in the head. tsk3.
then so streessed up liddat.
teros he mabok already.
then, + mengamok.
and riding also senget2 until kena tegoh.
tsk3. stress until liddat.

baru mau bayar hutang hp bills and shopping bills.
tsk3. hahaha.
work hard bf. *kachiiing*

nvrmd la. its okeh.
don't be sad.. (:

annnnnd talking about riding,
driving!

from home to gelang patah,johor.
i drove.
and thats the reason why i didn't have the chance to msg gf!
so so sorry.! wasn't on purpose.

and johor highway, super gerek.
110km/h. tsk3.
starting2 scarry cat, skali tekan minyak..
zoooooooooooom!
hahaha. kekek i tell you.

considered i drove lots of time already.
3 times or more to johor. then swap la with mama.
tsk, she don't allow me to drive on johors rd and such.

i'am not like her, thats why.
tsk. i'am new ok!
i should paste that w big fonts on the car.
well.
people could never give way to you.
so. what you can do?
wait wait. till kena horn.
hahaha. not me la.
somehow, i'll squeeze my way through.

i felt that mama's altis is already sooo huge!
for a newbie la.
still i find the car humongous.

+ she will always nag nag nag nag at me la.
went to sis plce that day, omg!
nagnagnag.
she complaint to sis.
saying, "i asal boleh drive"
hahahahaha.

its not asal boley.
i despise women driver actually.
now that i'am one,
i wouldn't want to be called one.
yes.

but i hate women drivers.
trust me, they suck.
tsk3.

as for me.
i don't care.
its okeh. call me anything you want.

+ boyfriend thought i would drive like a slowpoke.
wrong oi!
haha. his comments was,
" woah you! you bawak mcm jantan ah, best ah i dok blkang, enjoy!"

seee. mintak kena jitak this boy.
hahahaha. happy2 i driving mcm mau gila.
but still,
safety is always the important thing in whatever things you do.
((:

and insyallah i'll promise to drive carefully and safely.
(:

anddddd when can i get my bike license?!
amirah ong, can borrow me? i photocopy.
hahahaha.
lazy la, but still, its a must to get that.
wait till my bf kesygan masok NS.
hahahaha. (:
at lst i cn happy2 go bike pract.
rather kebosanan at home.

and, gf liyana bte pakcheek ju.
biler boley keluar ngn aku huh huh huh?
ciis.

kaylah. mau terjon ke atas katil.
selamat pagi! (:

sickkkkk!

2009-06-10T00:15:00.002+08:00

currently i'am back from Malaysia.
such a not so memorable holidays i should say..
tsk3.

and today morning, i got a high fever.
38.5. cramps all over.
and my head gonna burst soon.

headed to drs.
scary oi!

dr gave me antibiotics.
synflex.
and dhamol.
34 bucks flew away.
tsk.

i'am mooody all ard.

Honda. Honda. Honda. ((:

2009-06-03T13:40:00.007+08:00

iam so frigging bored to death.
yes i do.

boyfriend is currently handling those microchips and stuffs.
his at work. boring.

mama is at work too.
another boring.

GF is at work too.
another another boring.

and the rest of my gfs?
i dunno. boring.

anyhoos. i just checked my BBDC account.
in total. mama spent $2,457.69
that is such a BOMB!

but, its worth it afterall.
after the so much effort i have to put it.

i was even so scared to start my driving practicals.
i would dread going for it.
it can kill me.

and more naggings came from mama.
aiyo.
but jyeah, after some time.
i love driving!
haha.
yes i do.

sometimes i can't even wait to go for lessons.
(:

i miss those times.
wait till i enroll myslf for bikey bikey.
wheeez.

ohyea.
the feeling of driving mama's car and school car is way diff.
i had so much diffculty w the seats la. the dashboard la.
everything. those toys were blocking my view.
aiyo. troublesome i tell you.

got so pissed. this one. that one.
i still prefer HONDA CITY! the latest ones.
i love that car. serious shit.

so mama. please change your baby toyota altis to
maybe Honda Edix or Honda Freed???!

haaa. i would be killed if i ask her to change cars.
my late dad and me would have the same taste.
we love Hondas. hahahaha. (:

andddd,
we're off for another holidays!
yeay! gr8. gr8.!
happy. com.sg.

this time, we're going to round kampong areas.
pluck those fruits. and go fishing.
and and. i dunno what else?
hahaha.

hope it will be a smooth & unforgettable journey.

(:

laaaalaaaa!

2009-06-02T18:55:00.003+08:00

current location: neighbour's house.

why? to gelodeh her computer.

dunno simply what wrong w the comp.

irritating giler till i dunno how to get it repaired.

so bf is taking the job over from me.

tired till i go berzerk.

imagine till i haven't got my bath.

till i'am all dressed up.

fuhyoo.

so now i'am resting my butt.

mama said she's wanting to go to GIANT.

i dunno what she wanted to shop for.

so. had interview at recruite express.

still deciding.

i want to work in a clinic can?

die die i want can?

ward kills me.

urghs.

scaryyyy..

and walked around town w siti & yamfang.

those with 2 babies.

super kecohrable..

and i think i cn be the part time maid.

haiyo.

and today, i felt frigging tireed.

blom start keje. tsk.

just a simple update.

sometimes its better to be poor rather then rich, once you're rich, you're super duper stingy.

isn't it true?

well. comment on it people.

takecare.

the happiest thing that could ever happen. :)

2009-05-30T00:43:00.003+08:00

its one of the happiest day of my life.

indeed it was.

i achieve something that i've yearned for.

for years to be exact.

since i was in primary school.

i've already have dreams to drive a car.

even a bike.

how does that all came about?

most of my cuzzin brothers have cars/bikes

and they will bring me ard with it.

even i'am pampered by my cuzzie bros.

that was when i'am small la.

now, not.

haha.

so yea.

i've been always telling my mama.

"ma. i want to drive a car can?"

thats was what i always asked.

and my mama said,
"tunggu besar then boleh"

so yea. i waited for years.

even in sec school. i've always have my own imagination

of driving a car.

tsk3. biskoot.biskoot.

and. at last. i enrolled myslf at BBDC after rayaa.

ard OCT 2008. and finally.

my very own driving license for life on

29 May 2009.

it took me 8 months.

to finish all theory lessons.

evaluations before BTT,FTT.

it wasn't easy.

and. i didn't elaborate much on my blog

about me going for driving.

unlesss you bumped into me there or something.

its meant to be a surprise! (:

so jyeah.

syukur alhamdulilah.

w god's will. i pass the most tedious test w flying colours.

and i'am so proud of myself.

((:

woke up super early. got ready.

and off to BBDC alone.

test starts at 1015.

while warmup starts at 910.

b4 even i could take off my earpiece.

the warmup instructor called my name.

i'am off 1st for warming up.

tsk.

so jyeah.

i felt nothing. not scared. nothing.

i'am well prepared. mentally prepared.

everything. seriously.

i took this so seriously about my driving i tell you.

so. i did my warmup normally.

evrything goes well. (:

like always ppl advice me, do well in circuit.

and i did my very best! (:

after that. waited in the traffic police waiting area.

goosh i tell you, that was the most THRILLiNG EVER FEELING.

i could hear the tester shouted, scolding, all sorts.

everyone was so tensed. 17 of us there.

all tense up.

i told myslf i shouldnt follow the emotions there.

so. i kept on telling myslf.

its revison, its nothing.

and again, i did it.

and one by one. tester came in and read out the testee names.

half was already gone.

i was so scared at 1st.

and suddlenly.

two malay tester came it. and loudly, "Juliana!"

and i was like. " me sir!"

hahhahaa. laughing like gundu. greeted him.

and he told my test route.

being tensed at that moment.

i dint even realise the test route was in teck whye.

when driving out, then i realise.

tsk3. gundu.

and in the circuit.

i did super well la! ((:

haappy2. i improved a lot seriously.

thanks truckloads to eleena's uncle.

who was my instuctor who drilled me to bcame like this now.

i ain't scard of lane change.

nor S course. anything.

he pushed me to my limits during prac.

and i did super well and im happy abt it.

sometimes. i complained to mom& bf about him,

stressing me up and such.

only after sometime, which i realised,

i like his teaching methods.

looking forward to him teaching me each prac.

and eleena.

please tell your uncle tysm for the guidance and everything.

appreciate it truckloads! (:

and. after rounding the circuit.

off to teckwhye.

i got points.

failed to check for side roads. *which i did!*

failed to chk mirror moving off. *probly i forget once or twice*

and 1 more, i cn remember.

but. yea. understnd. impossible to have 0 points.

and i got 6 demerit points in total.

which bf was shocked i did so well.

yeeehar. i can do better than you BF.

so, while going up the stairs.

the pakcheek asked where i was schooling,

am i working and such.

was this my 1st time.

so i said, yes. and how was it?

he said BAGUS!

and i senyom like org giler alrdy.

so. while waiting for him to tell me pass or fail.

i was praying hard.

my hearbeat was like 80km/h i guess.

1st thing i ask.

"cik, saya pass tak cik?"

i dunno how the hell i call him cik?

haahaa!

and he said."pass la. bagus awak, jgn risau"

Masyallah i tell you. the feeling.

HEAVEN! i smile smile smile.

even bfore he finish speaking i smileed.

even bfore he finish his words, i said.

thanks cik. thanks cik. thankyou so much cik..

giler? i know.

i was speechless. to happy. so elated.

so proud of myself.

well. those drivers like me esp girls.

shld knw the feeling.

had to watch this vids.

while waiting, i called mom.

she was so happy that she took time off and went home.

HAHAHA. funny la she.

go makan. which i drove.

errr. i think HONDA CITY muchmuch better. hahahaha!

i neeed time to adjust anw.

yeah, drove from clementi to tekka. mackenzie rd.

then frm tekka to ptng pasir.

then mom took over. peak hr!

then after magrib. went to aunts place.

drove frm boonlay baq to clem.

and my legs are cramping all over!

bibik just massaged it with oil. and it fringging hot!

thats my day.

i'am loving today effing much.

and i was so busy replying msgs and kept on having missed calls.

tsk3! my mommy la.

she's telling the whole wide world!

hahaha.

mama. mama. (:

Dear Daddy.

I've accomplished your wishlist Num 1, that is to pass my license.

i did it for you, i did it for mama.

and i'am proud of myself.

and i believe you do.

ily dad.

i'll visit the makam soon.

bcause i've already had my niat.

and i will insyallah accomplish it.

gooodbye.

bf's on night shift. and i'am missing him just a little.

5% maybe?

haa.

curse.curse.curse.

2009-05-26T17:31:00.004+08:00

sometimes i think,

i behave better without a boy called boyfriend?

jyea.

sometimes, i misses my single hoood life?

yes. totally.

what for being so angry over a person called boyfriend?

i'am always pissed with a reason.

yes.

He put his friends 1st instead of me?

if i'am stranded on an island, he will come to his friend's rescue 1st.

and probly me, 3rd?

2nd would be his family?

i'am tired.

i never say NO to his friends.

i don't mind.

but why tell me?

you're suppose to fetch me,excuse me?

i called and you're happy laughing2 over the other end.

and i have to wait for you when youre over the other end of spore.

do you have the heart?

i bought the helmet along,so you wouldnt trouble yourslf to & fro.

i have thoughts for you,

but you?

you think its super cool, in the mrt,bus w a helmet?

indeed im embarassed, you never know right?

ppl think its cool to bring a helmet here and there,

showing ppl i have helmet, but no bike?

pathetic isn't it?

and you over there,care better for your friends.

you dunno whether i'am under a shelter. or smashing puddles in the rain.

you care better for them rather then me.

yes, you can put your friends 1st i don't care.

see? i get angry over just a pathetic person in my life.

if you want to know,

you made me this way.

you made me lose respect for you.

all came from you,

but you never notice.

you're always blaming me for everything i do.

thanks anyway.

such a egoistic person,

who points his mistakes to others.

gr8.

thanks to a person who's called a "boyfriend".

yea. to & fro i bought the freaking not light helmet.

shoulder hurts like stupid.

some stupid minahs stood infrnt the pathetic door.

and i PUSHED.

i don't care. standing in the middle.

illterate probly. doesnt know how to read the sign.

stupid muthafcker.

and some black negro turned and smiled at me.

think whut? by smiling cn melt me or whut?

ya, and then make use of me to smuggle drugs right?

like those in crimewatch stories.

idiotic.

and i was late for my lesson over at bbdc.

took taxi frm b.gombak.

which i got such a kind uncle.

whom made my day.

and bcause of that.

my lesson was perfect today.

gr8.

i need a getaway soon probly.

but this time,

i want to be with just gf.

nobody else.

3 more pathetic days.

72 hours more. lesser probly.

so ppl, pray for me.

i need your prayers.

takecare all.

2009-05-23T13:51:00.004+08:00

my fringe sucks.

ohh-kays.

shall not demolish this blog of miine.

but, i will update as and when i like it.

better yea?

currently. job-hauting.

the day i've been waiting for is gonna come very soon.

indeed, so soon.

countdown : 6 days!

6 more freaking days.

my heart it thumping super fast.

pray for me.

i need yr prayers.

yesterday, went out with my YaaanaLicious.

o, nono. Liyana.

hahaha.

i pulled her to accompany me for the crocs sale.

at spore expo.

the Q was freaking looong like never-ending.

it from the MRT stnt oh-kay?

that total crazyness.

but, i don't care.

last yr i went off bcause i couldnt stand the Q.

and i regretted.

this yr,its a must.

((:

yea, we Q. for an hour.

chatted.chatted.chatted.

tadaaa. time for us to go in.

1st stepped in, i was PUSHED,PULLED,SHOVE?

omg. and i started playing rough.

i pushed baq,

i pulled baq,

and lastly i shove bag.

hahaha.

best okey, so ppl, try that.

with all those kiasu aunts.

shit la. serious.

i was frigging lazy alrdy.

couldnt find mom's sandals.

neither bf's crocs.

bought ANOTHER alice crocs.

i got the velvet ones, i bough the non-velvet,

the normal ones.

and my babygirl crocs.

dora explora! (:

cute sangat2.

so, another word, tak gune je.

hahaha. seriously,

and we took half hr to pay.

and i was late for.

something. ((:

cabbed baq to clementi to LJS.

have brkfst cum lunch.

and the last weekends at sentosa was gr8+awesome.

thanks loves. (:

???

2009-05-14T14:17:00.001+08:00

i feel like just...

closing down this blog.

i mean, kinda pointless.

yeaa.

i'am just even too lazy to upload the pics at genting.

how?

HOLIDAY NOOOH! ((:

2009-05-07T00:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

I'am having too much fun from those holidays i gotten.

happy happy girl.

super happy i tell you.

((:

smile from eyes to ear till to dunno where else.

the holiday trip was AWESOME!!

yes indeed it was.

still it was tiring, but the fun & experience couldnt be replaced!

((:

1st night we set off, we had to climb up the cabin.

even my mama. stuggling though.

couldn't sleep in peace.

the whole train was shaking.

((:

reached in KL ard 7+.

waiting for my cuzzin sis to reach.

and then off for breakfast.

everyone was looking at me, in such a weird way.

agaknye belom mandi nye pasal uh?

hahahaha!

after brkfst, baq to her home,

had a cold nice shower,

and off to KLCC!

Bf was so effing excited + happy mcm berook!

snapped loads of pictures.

and supposingly, meeting my cuzzie.

end up, didn't! boooo!

that was sad la.

nvrmd. ((:

so we tried to get tickets to the skybridge.

happyily hoping we can get in,

indeed, we can! after waiting for abt an hr.

happy tak terkata noh!

((:

the views were gawjust la.

chk my facebook for most of the pictures aite.

and then, headed to sungai wang.

didnt have much time to walk ard.

rushing anyhoos.

and then, baq hooome!

sleeeept. and i can't sleep as usual.

booo. eyebags again.

And the very 2nd day, ((:

i was the 1st one to wake up, bath.

but still, no one was awake!

so i woke up bf to shower.

it was ard 530 i had my shower!

haha. sort. but, i can't cont my sleep lor.

then we pack all our stuffs and such,

headed to 1 of my cuzies hse, met the kids,

and i miss em!

and had brkfst and off we goooooo!

trganu. it was about 5-6 hrs drive.

it wasn't near ohkay!!

lucky thing, i didnt have any seats sore.

bontot sakit noh.

travel2. tak sampai2.

bf and me, as usual, took the clouds la,

the tress la, the roads la.

and i fell aslepp, as usual.

each time i rest my bum in a car,

i will strt falling asleep. HAHA!

stop halfway, at this MARANG BEACH.

for picnic. nola, kinda lunch.

convoy 3 cars. althgh 4.

some snaps. and off to trgnu.

rch the hotel late.

Felda residence. it was soooo beautiful!!!

((:

rested. and we jalan2 at some pasar malam.

windy gile noh, tpi pantai pasar malam.

hurhur, had late dinner.

till 11midnite makanan tk smapi,

till my eyes were soooo droopy.

had such a gooodnight sleep.

Day 3. ((:

and woke up early the next morning for bkfst buffet.

fooood were quite yummy mummy! ((:

took a few shots of the beau place.

and off for shopping at pasar payang.

ohgosh. mcm pasar gaylang.

all of us were sweating mcm nak giler!!

hot.hot.hot. search for sis songket. tk dpt also.

then bought keropok2. mcm nenek2.

lol.

then headed to arfa batik, where they sell all batiks and such.

nice store la.

then we headed baq to highway,

another 5-6 hrs again!!

and next, heading to GENTING HIGHLAND!!!!!!

omg! i was so freaking happy, that i tried staying awke the whole journey,

still i cnt.

ngntok. LOL!

we stopped at ajis satar.

nono, the shop owner is ajis, and his popular w satar.

you know satar? dunno?

i also dunno how to explain.

and the otak2 sedap gile!!!

they put rempah and real fish!!

sedaaaaaaap gile.com.

mane kt spore nak dpt noh??

((:

last2 about 7pm,

baru naik genting.

fuhyooooooooooooooooooooooooooo!

freaking dark & kabos dia.

masyallah! tk nampak!

si org sblah dh maboooook sampai nak muntah2.!

kecoh la seh.

kay, updte pasal genting next post.

ngntoook nak tido. HAHAHAH!

((:

HOLIDAY! ((:

2009-04-29T13:58:00.002+08:00

HIP HIP HOORAY!

I'am going for a HOLIDAY!

yes uh, happy giler.com.sg

we decided only last week seh.

aiyoyo.

will be going tonight till sunday.

morning will be back in spore.

bf also tagging.

nak aje ikot.

((:

maklomla, tk penah naik keretaapi,

kesiyan nye ehhh.

so, its his

1st virgin trip to KL.

and 1st virgin trip in a train.

choooot choooot.

happy pe aku.

yest all pack, and my bag cant fit!!

mcm mau lari rumah tk balik sia.

HAHAHA! ((:

happy2 girl aku,

aku nak shopping sampai tkboleh.

HHAHAHA! nak amek gbr beribu2.

probly gg to trnganu tooooo!

tk penah oi g sane.

((:

kaylah, takcare all.

((:

its a happy2 day!

2009-04-26T00:36:00.004+08:00

today, had Kenduri.

daddy's 100 days.

yea.

and ohh!

GF came over.

was so happy & excited seh!

thanks babe for coming over!

ily! ((:

freaking shocked me like gila ohkays.

and i got CAREBEARS!

bigger ones, cute nak mampos.

thanks once again!

aannd then, early morning headed to the salon,

sister wanted to reborn her fringe.

and me, hair treatment.

cause ppl calls me LION already seh.

bas***.

well, ended up, sis rebonded the whole hair

and me, straighten it.

but once wash, bubye to my straight lovely

LADY GAGA HAIR!

wakakakakaka!!! ((:

oh, i so love my hair.

its getting longer now!

((:

and and,

baby came tooo!

so miss her.

++ bf mommy & brother came too.

happy sia baby. HAHAHA!!

((:

today was overall, GREAT! ((:

HAPPY.COM.SG.

tak terkata sungguh ohkay!

and, and, and

I LOVE MY SOOON TO BE POLICEMAN!!!

WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!

tu lagik happy.com siaa dpt news.

happy sampai cry2 gitu.*ok bedek*

kay. goodnight!

((:

+ tgh happy web camming sendiri.

soory, malas nak melawa, no makeup today, nothing

only hair.

so, you prefer me with straight hair or permed hair?

((:

(:

2009-04-24T02:31:00.002+08:00

it 2+ am.

and i still can't sleep.

there's a huge strong wind just now.

it was super strong.

that i could even hear the wind blowing.

gr8. and i was scared.

why?

i'am sleeping alone in the hall.

sister came over yest,

bcause sat there will be kenduri n such.

yea.

now i'am reading, Remember Me-Sophie Kinsella.

((:

im done w confession of a shopaholic!

riding w bf's bro was gr8! ((:

2009-04-22T01:26:00.004+08:00

today was aaa-ohkay la kan.

woke up super late,cause we slept late.

beauty&the geek nye pasal.

and we went out to autobacs in bb.

to check for the rubber for boot whateva thingy they call that.

super expensive nak tukar.

haiyo.

then we dunno where else we should head,

and this bf decided to get his rack and his grad letter.

so,off to bedok.

then,waited for his bro,

cause nobodys at home.

andddd,then headed to ECP lagoon.

yay! ayam penyet,so not nice.

satay sedaaaap! + ayam bbq!

woooo! heaven.com.

and i miss ayam penyet at lucky plaza.

and the gado2 at ayam penyet ria.

so, LIYANA.BJ. bile nak gi makan?

HAHAHA!

okeh, then back to bedok cause this boy forgotten his letter.

then bumped w his bro.

his bro wanting to see his dad.

funny i tell you.

while we're heading baq frm ecp to bedok.

he was playing on the road,

then i scolded him.

then suddenly, he gone quiet.

so i was asking why n why?

guess what? its his daddy!!

but he didnt notice us.

we followed him all the way,

funny thing, naz called and called,

still didnt notice.

haha. cute la.

still can say, oh, i didnt notice.

ingtkn budk jahat mane!

hahahahahaha!

*geleng2 kepale*

LOL.

then his bro asked to acmmpy to meet his daddy again.

so we went.

considered riding gitu.

and

his bro bawak motor,

aku yg boleh pengsan tgk.

mcm2 benda yg dia buat. HAHA!

but, it was gr8 la.

his a joker,+ slegeh dia sama like his abg.

slegeh gila!!

hahaha!

then at 10, off home.

my head started spinning.

makan byk mutton agaknye.

hahaha.

ok, bye!

((:

ignore niie kay, make-up tkder, rambot penyet alrdy.

adik beradik NEON BIRU! ((:

PITZA HUTTY yesterday!

cam-whoriiing!

2009-04-20T13:08:00.003+08:00

Sunday was great~

yes.

woke up early.

asked bf to accompany me to cemetery.

visited only late dad's.

the rest mom could go probly next week,

bcause we have guest from KL.

and she need to send them somewhere that morning.

so yea, had breakfast at clementi central.

then off home for another shower,although we showered earlier on.

then, we were stucked, dunno where wana go.

and we decided on popeyes,craving oi.

seddaaaap.com.sg.

yes,yes.(:

and photo-taking time.

best gile. haaa.

suke amek gbr. LOL!

sat, went to john lil expo AGAIN!

brought the guest there.

and i got nothing much more to buy.

((: in total, 4 times i went there.

haiyo.

then off to fork&spoon!

ayam bakar ojajali.*sembarang je spell*

i dunno the spelling anyhoos.

haa.

okeh, enough la.

more pictures, facebook okehs?

gerek.com.sg (:

2009-04-17T23:39:00.003+08:00

1st thing 1st.

Today, AWESOME.

BF went for his friday prayers while i accompany

my lil god bro playing his psp.

waiting for him to fetch me to John Lil Expo Sale

for the very last time. heeeh. (:

actually thing was that,

i need to buy thighs at Bugis.

Evening, was suppose to visit Yaya.

BUT! ended up? she got discharged.

Me & Muyas planned to have a surprise visit for her actually,

so, while i was on the way to expo, she msged me,

since its in my bag, i didnt notice.

so, there's a msg from yaya, and i thought she's gonna msg me

telling she's in hosp.

but instead, SHE SAW US!

omg, so i was like, "huh?? where you at? how come you saw me?why never shout?"

haha.

the thing was, she was in the car, heading to geylang.

and i didn't know how she saw us.

she msg me,"Julie, I saw you &naz on the bike,cheey"

so i went *blank*.

ingatkan kt hospital, nseb tak visit,

skali sape ntah. HAHA!

funny nak mampos.

how she notice me?

she read my name on the helmet.

and she wondered.

skali its us.*laughs non-stop*

so,its useful by putting my name there. (:

next thang was, wanted to met up w Muyas & Aneh.

then this Muyas didn't reply.

so after expo, headed to marina barrage.

snap few pic and off to eat, tummy rumble2.

and suddenly, somebody called my name." Juliana!"

so i was like, "huh? huh?"

it was michelle! used to be neighbour classmates.

gosh.she was w her bf.

ya, and so, we started the bike and off we go,

b4 exiting,

this BF suddenly stopped halfway,

cause there's this bike which look similar to his friends.

and then,another bike came by,

and i loook.

it was MUYAS &ANEH!

hahaha. funneh. i was laughing2 mcm gile.

they asked to join em, but we were damn frigging hungry seh.

so, we headed our own way.

headed to suntec and PASTAMANIA!

yeeeaaaa! 15% off for member,

and its a few bucks cheaper.(:

home sweeet home. (:

and BF was so slengeh today! yay!
hurhurhurhur!!! (:

and while odw back, we saw some barrel toppled over

at the road side.

guess whut.

TAUGAY! TAUGAY!

the road was full of taugay!

the lorry probly did a sharp turn and all fell off.

i was asking BF to stop so i cn help pick the taugay!

haha. and he said,

"ok la, i turunkan you,you tlng dia angkt,i tlg ktwekan"

idiot right?

and a malay man helped him. so nice.

his family were waiting inside the car while he helped the taugay man.

haiyaaa, such a funneh2 day la today.

AND!

bf was attacked by a bee. not really attack la.

his bike got sarang lebaaah! ahahaha!

then he kept on running away, pathetic. LOL!

buat maluuuu!

dad, i'am so missing you. :'(

2009-04-16T00:10:00.005+08:00

Its gonna be 100 days this saturday dad left us.

to me, it felt like its just yesterday.

i miss him, damn much.

at the very least, he would be my company at home when

i'am having my term break.

I'am super manja with dad instead,

bcause my mommy isn't the person who can manja2 with.

her way of manja-ing me,is giving anything i ask for.

and you know, my dad loves to snap pictures w me instd of mom.

random right?

thats why, its a gr8 loss when dad isn't in this world anymore.

he loves pampering me,loves to pinch my cheeks,loves to play w my hair.

and i'am 18 yrs old, and he still does that.

any dad would do that?

i would disturb him,and he would irritate me back.

how i wish i could turn back time.

*heavy sigh*

and when time comes for me to count my money on hari raya,

he was the 1st to volunteer.

we would even count money and gossip who gives us more.

mom cried during my grads,

i asked why,

cause my dad didn't see me graduate.

but he sees me finished my course.

with a good progress award in hand,

and im sure he is proud of who i am now.

all from above.

yes, i'll miss those times.

dad, i miss you.

life has been great.

at the very least, i have my dearest boyfren company.

or else, i'll be alone.

soon, he will be serving the nation.

and will go far away from me.

*another huge sigh*

its oh-kay, by the time,

i'll have things occupy thruout my day.

annnd, its a little personal to share it.

but still, i need to say it.

what it is?

my aunt called me, but i didn't notice.

and msged back, she called again.

and she said,

"CAN I BORROW MONEY FROM YOU?"

and i went, "HA? errrm,i'll see how"

doesn't mean that i treat my family&her to Sakura,

doesn't mean im hell loaded w money.

mom's finishing her contract at the end of the month,

so, where does the source of income?

i simply don't understand.

easy to ask, time for a payback,

you'll just act nothing would happen.

she would always ask my mom.

and HER SON WOULD ASK FROM MY MOM TOOOOO!

hell yea, think what, my mom is a loanshark???

yes, ppl see us easy, but when we suffered through hardship,

anybody there to lend us a helping hand?

when comes to money, everyone will wash their hands off.

am i right?

you're asking me? from a girl who is just pathetic 18yrs old

and not even WORKING??

i have my REASONS for not working now.

i have my plans for the FUTURE.

so, if you people still wanna knw why im still jobless.

thats the reason.

i'll start haunting by mid year.

+ i've just rejected a job offer for

MARINA BAY SANDS!

fcuk&!#@

hell yea, all bcause for the future plan,

and the resort starts at the end of the year,

how pathetic.

and its the job i've always wanted people.

FRONT GUEST AGENT at MARINA BAY SANDS RESORT

aka

front desk in the hotel.

wtf julie?

THAT IS WHAT I ALWAYS WANTED PEOPLE!!!

but due to a good future,

i won't let my nursing skills come to an end.

insyallah, if there's something that i'am yearning for,

i'll get it.

not now, in 20 or 30 years to come.

haaaaish, awful feelinngg!

takecare my lovely peeps.

and oh,

to gf aka liyana juhari &salini,

happy monthsary to the both of you.

i love you.

2009-04-11T10:55:00.004+08:00

I turned in quite late last night.

boyfie was fast asleep + snoring away.

i just couldn't shut my eyes.

i tossed and turned, still, it came to the same.

and, i decided to browse through bf inbox

which messages was full with my name.

so i begin browsing through, each and every one of it.

i miss those times, where i didn't get to meet each day.

the feel of missing him came back.

and i could feel how i felt the last time.

how he use to irritate me.

tell me that he loves me.

and such,

gosh, those times were memories.

he kept all those msges.

purpose was, memories.

indeed it was true enough,

all the sweet moment came back to my mind.

how wonderful it was.

the relationship is coming to 2 yrs now,

and how we suffered the hardship,

the tempers and such,

we manage to overcome it.

in other words, his my pillar to everything.

just everything,

just name it, its him.

he did everything/anything just for me,

to make me smile.

to make me happy.

and trying to be the best boyfren to me,

and son to his mommy.

i thanked god, for letting him know me.

i was reluctent in the 1st place to get to know him.

and ended up, we bcame pairs.

i didn't regret knowing him,nor didn't regret loving him.

and to my dearest boy,

from the bottom of my heart,

thank you so much for just everything you have scrafice and done for me.

i couldn't repay you as much as whut you have given to me.

You are my heart, my soul, my treasure,

My today, my tomorrow, my forever,
My everything!

(:

2009-04-11T01:17:00.002+08:00

Hello Lovelies. (:

Today is succhhh a gr8 day.

perhaps? heeeh!

but in the morning, my day started of gloomy.

i got so freaking pissed.

bcause of certain matters.

shall not name it anyways.

then, i fell asleep again. haa.

it was raining so heavily.

and i got my flu bug back once again.

how sad.

then, woke up, ate cup noodle.

pathetic i know.

and asked mama out.

cause its so freaking boreeeed,

and i felt like rotting.

and so, decided to go expo.

i wanna go john lil sale.

while mom wana go IT i dunoo whut.

went in to the books warehouse.

i wanted to buy, but, nothing caught my eyes.

so,went in to IT fair la,

and now, i have a new member of the family,

TADA! (:

certainly not mine!

bcause i still love my hot pink laptob!

its moms. inspiron 1427.same as above pic.

its dell too. all computer and laptobs are dell.

dell freak! (:

its for her work and busniess venture.

i dunno! bcause its been a very loooong time she wanted 1.

and we head to john lil.

OMGGGG! lots n lots n lots of people.

and world,

I DECLARE MYSELF AS A SHOPAHOLIC!!!!

not a freak like in the movie.

but i'am so in love w shopping.

only when i have the cash.

but since im w mama.

she's the banker for the day.

omg, i love my mom!!

i bought lingerie. crazy over pierce cardin,

bcause they cute & colourful la.

then i bought ANIMAL bag,

such a low low price!

i likeee! (:

and bf got 2shirts.

1ANIMAL shirt and 1 Tengkorak shirt.

and i got 1 kinda like sweater.

and chocolates toooooo!

omg,omg. chrles&keith shoes too!

but, its tooo much for me to grab like everything!

im not into shoes that much.

im more to tops and lingerie! hahahahahaha!

im so in love w shoooopping! (:

gooodnight. (:

lovely day today.

2009-04-10T00:56:00.005+08:00

today is such a BLAST! (:

i meet up with my girls after such a loooooong time we didn't met up.

oh gosh, nothing could describe today.

its was SUPERB!

met up w eleena and we went haunting for zia bdae prezzie.

it was so diffcult 1 that would suit her la.

haha. at last, we settled w something sweet&simple.

hope zia likes it though.

bought tickets to confession of a shopaholic.

and...

the movie was AWESOME!

yes it was. i looooooove it. totally in love w it.

i wana get the boooook la.

after the movie ended, we went food haunting.

w zia wanting," nasi ayam kulit putih"

ena was laughing like mad cow. haha.

since we met up, we couldnt stop laughing.

even at the slightest things. esp zia.

haha!

i even thought that she had asthma.

cause she laughs like she's experiencing 1 la.

crazy women. haha.

then decided to head to long johns.

settled there and had our food.

we joke till we choke.

laugh till we can't breathe.

i think from outside, you could hear us laughing.

even ppl bside us got irritated.

hurhurhur.

zia and ena couldnt stop la,

prbly both on laughing gas!

haha.

and we recalled about all the childhood days.

where we played block catching,malay dancing

and the list goes on and on..

and gotta know zia lastest secret.*u know i know*

hahaha! kecohs la.

thanks girls for the super duper great time.

although we spent such a lil time together,

i felt so elated la. (:

more&soon to come aite.

and HAPPY SCHOOLING to the both of you.

HAHAHA! (:

and and, my drebar fetched me,

while ena mommy fetched her n zia baq hooome.

thanks drebar! ahhaa.

nono, thanks my lovely bf. (:

who dropped my phone! *smacks*

last monday, went to bf's friends bbq.

just a gathering for all of em.

gr8 & awesome!

ok guys, next lepaking session, soon.

annnd, headed to iluma on tues.

bumped into lots and lots of friends.

1st off, myrul& atit.

buuuut, i didnt even saw yana&sarah lor.

sheesh, full of david archoooleta fans,

screaming like org gile. LOL!

next, w bf so called gd friend,and his gf.

up next, my pri school mate, syfik noor,

but didnt tegor, he got reggae hair! lol.

and lastly, my goooood broo!

lame seh tk jumpe. haaa!

and god bro was with 1 of bf's friend.

wad a small world! (:

i chatted w my bro,

while bf w his fren. haaaa!

okeh, happy goooood friday everyone.

he added colours to my boring life. (:

2009-04-05T02:01:00.004+08:00

lately has been so fineee!

yea.

tag bf to mesjid for friday prayers,

as in i went to run errands for mom while

waiting for him to end his prayers.

such a hawt2 day,

bank in my cheque.and i saw asraf!

woo, was ber-tenkaring w bf,when suddenly a tall figure came.

haha. funneh.

ohya, b4 that,

we were moving off on the bike when suddenly bf yelled,

yes, yelled!

" EH EH, SLIPPER I TERTINGGAL!"

i was angry at that point of time and i burst out lauughing

like i never lagh for zillions of yrs la.

haiyoo. tsk3!

and he turned back to grab his slippers.

i can cry laughing la!

lately we've been to GIANT to buy drawers.

now a neater kitchen, room and shoe rack.

im happy. haha.

tiring mcm nak mampos sia.

on the aircon also sweating profusely laa!

went to ikea to see what i could buy.

heh.

ohyah, bought this neutrogena wave cleanser.

woah seh, gr8 la. soft seh skin,

but a lil expensive la.

actually, i always forget what i need to blog la.

haiyoyo.

i'll need to use twitter seh,

but,any others bside tht?

and today, went to buy dumpling leaves.

and the rain was coming to our direction,

and we quickly bike away.

this gendut la, rush2.

like mad cow seh.

funneh la, running away frm the rain.

end up, at my carpark, rained so heavily.

on time. (:

then went to IMM, bought extension plug.

wanted to buy this dress.but too ex la.

then bf marah oi. ciis.

kaylah. sampai dsini.

and to dearest bf,

thanks for everything that you have done for me aite.

which i realise that out of 10guys,only 1 would be like you.

and thats you. (:

you're there when i needed you and not needed too.

no guys would do that bsides you.

im lucky that i fell in love w you.

you have never negleted yr gf and yr lil gf needs you.

i don't need my own space cause you'll fill the space for me.

im happy to be w you, and none would replace you.

although i have to face you 24hrs round the clck,

i can never get tired.

instd,i appreciate it loads.

thank you muhd nazree.

babes&dude of JR0701F, if you're reading this,

you're missed!

and i miss school life. no more of it anymore.

i wish to turn back time.

baking lapis! booo!

2009-03-29T00:36:00.004+08:00

currently im helping mom to bake lapis,

i just got baq frm sister's hse ard 1140pm.

i got home only, straight away mom said,

"tlg mama buat kek lapis, mama nak tlng bibik w kueh chang."

and i let out a heavy sigh. tiring mcm nak mampos seh.

si matair bonchet kat luar happy2 tgk teeveee,

and im so burning hot in the kitchen w the oven stove on.

cause steaming the dumplings.

but, it was a gr8 day cause i get to shop,

alot2 and alot, which made me go bonkers.

and lose lots of money!

booo. after this im so gonna save up!

in the early morning, i got so irritated w the bonchet,

pemlas seh wana wakeup, bgn je laptob, irritating siaaaa ong!

grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!

then i went to clementi ave 2 to buy winter melon seed aka kundor,

walking under the hot blazing sun, bought brkfst,

end up also never eat,

brought it to bishan and gave it to mom,

whose baking lapis w abg boy at the shop.

b4 that, went to penisula to buy my bag.

ader duit mah, itchy sia tgn.

hahahaha!

then ate my lunch, cup noodle, pathetic.

then shop so over crowded, which me & bonchet made amove.

and we went to expoooo! robinson sale last 2 days,

bought my makeup,l'oreal oi.

powder,blusher,eyeliner=$66.70

discounted price=$42.70

kinda worth it la. so, go people!

last day today,

so much of recession! ngeh3.
(:

bonchet dh tktau sabar sia, kalau brg dia, dulu2.

he bought everlast kinda polo t. nice oi.

i chooose, and also i pay lah.

sume aku tau.

ohyeah! he has his bike box changed!!

maklomla, kunci dh rosak, beh tkbleh kunci,

tak selamat siol brg.

so biaselah kan, mama ku baik hati,

dia call, kata, "tkperlah, kau belikan die box baru, mama byr"

hahahaha! aper lagik, member happy tepok2 tgn la.

haiyo.

ohyea, met Jumali,at ahboy.

baru pass the accident pah bro?

tgn berluke2 sia.

ride safely dude, bapak racer katakan.

hahaha. (:

bhagia kan hidop, duit pon habes.

ader hati so bonchet wana buy another mirror.

kang ku jitak, pikir apek jual mirror pah,

mcm2 mirror sia he got.

waste money aje! simpan tktau!

after expo, headed to sister hse since its too early to head hme,

chilalala there and meet the cute giler farisha ong.

dh pandai skg, hurhur.

then we headed to rasa2 for dinner.

chili crab siol order, abeh kopek malas.

hahaha!

kena maki hamon ngn abg ipar aku.

beh kangkong, pari sambal,butter sotong,

hidop bahagia pah?

LOL!.

bapak baru hantar duit dari london!

kak said so.

broinlaw and bonchet bahagia sia, order shake2.

amek all mahal2.

pantat. then i paid for the drinks,

sis paid for 3/4 of the bill.

while i paid the balance.

seeee! pompan jugak kena bayar.

tk gune btol.

ciiiis!

makan sampai nak meletop.

sampai kpale sakit dtg balik.

grrr.

and yah, bonchet n me headed to swensens yest,

tu lagik! sampai jalan hoyong hayang sia enjoy life

until likedat.

haiyoo. hahaha!

ohyah, ive gotten my letter from schooool.

im so gonna collect my cheque next week in school.

leceh sia.

woooo, happy sia got GOOD PROGRESS AWARD BEB!

senyom sampai telinga sume senget.

$$$$ masok lagiiik! but, but, but. SAVE SIA!

no more shopping at alll!

blog like never ending.

cause my cake lapis is still half only.

booo.

okeh people. takecare.

did all of us switch off yr lights anot at 830?

save the earth oi.

Happy Birthday to My dearest friend,

Noraziah B A.R.

(hah kau, name penoh) (:

Happy 19th oh-kays! (:

Hope you had a gr8 bdae w yr bf.

annd, we'll go out soon to catch up yeay!

i hate migrain! go away laaa.

sheesh!

Spore expo, halal fair. (:

2009-03-23T12:22:00.002+08:00

this 4 days have been super tiring nak mampos.

3rd day already i cannot tahan.

woke up early, go back late.

but business was gooooood. *thumbs up!*

3rd day, we packed up ard 730pm as all were completely sold out!

last day, same. ard 8, we're done, closed!

waiting for the movers to move the chiller and such.

best. (:

cupcake aku 3rd day dahbesssss!

sedap dari org sbelah nye ohkkay.

sdare2 ku comment.

*bangga seminit*

but, it was a good experience.

mcm2 org dijumpai.

i realise i hate being in this business line.

its hard for me to approach customers.

while being a nurse, its different,

u dont need to force yrslf to talk to patients/relatives.

it all comes naturally.

i realised that.

yeay. enough of the lil short post.

takecare ppl.

*thats my bro-in-law. w his so called tak menjadi future car, pass kt TP dulu!*

kalau la aku yg bwk, trust me, jahanam. LOL!

soon to be rider. abeh kpale senget, berat sgt.

dagu berbruise. lol. jatoh beb, sampai dpt minyak free! (:

Food Fair, Come down yea?

2009-03-15T10:08:00.003+08:00

Halal 2009
19 March 2009 - 22 March 2009

Event type : Lifestyle
Venue : Hall 6B and Atrium 6
Admission : Public - Free Admission
Event Schedules :

Time: 10am to 10pm

Show Profile :

Halal 2009 is here again! All products & services related to food, lifestyle, wedding under one-stop station with attractive ‘recession’ prices to suit every consumer needs.

There, come & support us oh-kay?

chey3! cause we're participating in it.

cause the co-share partner got this offer,

and we decided to go along together w her.

so, im super excited. and 'semangat'.

gonna help mom bake her lapis.

and bibik will help her w her ba-chang.

and not forgetting the cupcakes too!

bro-in-law helping w the leaflets,and then i have to take over the job.

suke,suke,suke banget. (:

since i'm very free, + bf is super free.

we're gonna play an important part though.

(: heh.

bf aka the-delivery-boy wannabe super semangat i tell you.

hur hur hur hur.

so friends, come down alright?

support me? haha. no, support them.

greatly appreciated.

oh-kay, leave that for now.

ahh, bf shook me real hard while i was still in my dreamland.

it goes like this,"you,you,bangun you,cepat2 bangon."

and kept on repeating, so i woke up. and he excitedly,happy giler said,

"adik i kuar berita minggu you! bgon you."

then he never stop smiling.

mcm org gile.LOL.

Baby tak lamer popular la tuu + confrm2 ramai peminat.

haha. all the best oh-kays? (:

and sister will be sleeping here. yeay!

that means my cute girl would be arong. double yeay!

hurhurhur. today would be a gr8 day i guess.

and days ago, i brought bf to the botanic gardens,

heran kan? but i pulled him there to feed the fishes in the pond!

i miss feeding them oh-kay, so i decided to pay them a visit.

lol. (: i even spoke to duck. and it looked at me. LOL.

funneh. then bf excited, next day, go again.

we got drenched la seh. mcm pantat.

suddenly it rained so heavily, and while on the bike,

i saw RAINBOW AGAIN!

woo, my favourite. (:

oh-kay, pictures will be up.

takecare lovelies.

have a pleasant day!

mcm makcik2 sia, bawak roti summore. LOL!

love the love ones.

2009-03-06T23:51:00.003+08:00

this days were so gr8 & fine.

yes.

i love this days, bcause i didn't argue much.

right bf? *kening naik turun*

hahahaha!

last saturday, i did cupcakes.

out of sudden, wanted to try.

1st time oh-kay in my life i tried cupcakes?

aaaand, thanks to mom for the super loud instructions,
& bf for being the mixer & decorator of my cupcakes.

but, im contented w it laah.

lawa + super sayang wanna eat it.

its my first attempt hokay?

and mom baked kek lapis durian.

cuzin bro baked kek lapis strawberry cheese!!

yummy mummeh.

ohyeay, if you peeps wana knw,

my cuz bro & mom has this kek lapis business for now.

trust me that mom kek lapis is way way diff.

if you're intending to order, infrm me in advance hokay?

i'll give a sample.

P-r-o-m-o-s-i nampak.

hurhurhur.

since bf gotten his Gst money, he splurge everything on his biike!

he changed his brakepad, his mirror,grip and seat cover.

hmmmmz. money fly away just like that hor?

and just now change his chain.

aiyoyoyoooooooooooooo! stress gituk.

and yeay, bf treated me to pastamania after such a long time

nt treating me.

ahahaha! (:

and the food is not that bad, shall try pizza next time round.

went to deliver kek lapis to sis office just nw and

off to SNB to collect my cert, and security said, they're having fire drill.

how weird. lol.

then off to suntec, for career fair.

omg, loads and truckloads of ppl la.

sheesh. had a headache turning round n round.

and then headed to marina sq, omg,

ask boyfren, we had fun collecting FREE FREEBIES!

lol. got watterbottle, pens,keychain and such.

and i gotten this strhub gift, there's pillow, water,notebook,landyrd.

and it was so freaking heavy la.

till on the bike also cannot balance.

hurhur. but, was gr8!

did some shopping at bugis, as usual.

bought jeans. blame it on bibik la.

bought tops. then bf mengamok, pasal he cnt wait.

haaaaaaaaa!

and yesterday, went out to lunch w sis carrie chng & aunt.
the 89.7 deeejay, omg! its been million zillion years i last saw her.

im way2 shorter now, she told me to put on heels when meeting her.

lol. and thanks for swensens! (:

+ i'am so grateful i have the love ones arnd me.

they are the ones whom i turned to when i'm in need.

i treasure them and i love them to bits and pieces.

they made my life more meaningful and every min

counts being w them.

thanks mama, ily loads and loads. she really2 gave me everything that i wanted.

i know im pampered & spoilt.

but still, heh, ily and the love will never end.

& next up, thanks muhd nazree.

the next one whom love pampering me. then if mengamok,

dgn muker2. :P

he can never let me b on my own.

he disallow ohkay. boo.

he's always there for me la.

and i loveee you freaking much.

goodluck for exams yah?

my sis & fam,

esp farisha, she's such a dear la.

i love her tooo loads.

she's cute and forever is cute.

& thnks to sis for weekends which

she always stay over.

what more could i ask for?

only thing, i miss dad.

his always missed.

let's not talk about it, boooo!

oh yeah,

during media fiesta, saw fiona xie,gurmit.

ilyas, be jealous.

hurhurhur. (:

goodluck to whoever taking yr exams yeaa?

may you score rainbows all around. (:

& Happy Belated bdae to Aslina,Dale's gf

since i cant tag her.

my helmet is full of stickers now, thnks to bf.

how was it? nice? comments welcome. (:

see, ilybf! mane nak dpt nie mcm? hahaha. (:

Happy Monthsary.(:

2009-02-25T22:41:00.005+08:00

Hello dear readers.

Basically today, probly an oh-kay day lah.

it started well, then, thunderstorm oi!

hur,hur,hur.

*peace to boyfriend.*

heh, i said hurting words to him,

so did he ohkay!

pierce deeeeep oi!

tapi thats all for show,

action katerkan.

i still love him deep,deep to the deepest ohkays.

& & & HAPPY MONTHSARY DEAREST BOYFRIEND TERCINTE!

i dunwan care bear lah.

still own me my ice cream seh, and fish pasta.

booooooo!

shall we go pastamania bf?

thanks for bringing me the whole spore la today.

not really today, the past days.

where both got drenched mcm nak giler oiii!

stress giler. hahaha.

but i sukeeeee!

played in the rain mcm budak kecik.

makeup sume hancor bocai seh.

sheeeeeesh!

and, while i had something on just now.

i saw a HUG,HUGE,HUGE rainboooow!

OMG! my heart started melting,

it so beau-tiful. seriously.

i really wanted him to b by myside.

but i was alone seh. w the cik la of course.

nvmrdddd.

and the rainbow was distracting me!

i cant concentrate seh.

2 rainboww seh! lawa giler mcm nak mampos.

serious shit.

the nicecest view is b.b.

where i saw it.

cause the sun starting to shine.

mom baked kek lapis chempedak,

HEAVEN & EARTH siol.

kick kedegak habis.

and we had kfc yest.

popeyes today.

see, Julie leads such a happy and blissful life w bf.

yay.

Julie love love love Naz ohkay?

andddd, amirah ong, try again alright,

im super sure u cn do it.

go for it ohkay babeh?

i believe in yooou! (:

daaaaaaaaaaaaah people.

ily my bf!

2009-02-21T01:05:00.004+08:00

Life currently has been err,oh-kays!
im being entertained each day w the babygirl.
none other then Farisha Qistina Bte Muhd Fadli.
aww, she go freaking hawt & gaw-just
not forgetting cute&adohrable.
she makes my day i tell you.
(:

she's been tugging me to play hide&seeek!
she's been here for the past 1 week.
and her front teeth mcm pagar2 cinte sia.
hurhur.

ohwell, my bf? his irritating yet adohrable.
but his irritating attitude,tkbleh angkats!
hurhurhurhur!!!
im the one who has been tolerating,
right bf? if you say no,im so gonna let u kiss my ass!
hahaha! ily la! (:

&&& MACAROON RAWKS MY WORLD!!!
2 days straight sia eat macaroon.
thanks mommy for the 1st day,
and 2nd day, thanks bf for helping me haunt for me.
yeaa!

ohkays, im gonna sleeeep, not forgetting to let my bf put me to sleep.
muahahahaha!
sweet kan my bf?
i know you all jealous.

daaaaaaah!
(:

happy.com

2009-02-15T21:24:00.003+08:00

Hey Bitch.

Today was gr8 la seh.

went out w the whole family w sister fam's too.

gerek.com.

w the farisha ong.

mom expected me to follow somehow.

+ happy birthday to salihin.

may you have a blessed yr ahd.

and sorry guys for nt tagging alng.

so, valentines, i didn't celebrate of course.

considered stayed home w mom, isha ong and bf.

sis went to dinner w bro-in-law.

while, baby got secret admire, gave her flower sumore.

hahaha!

and me & bf had cold rock. woohoo.

since we bought food for mom and others,singgah la seh.

just gotten a letter, mom gave it to me.

i saw ITE. so i was thinking, what else ITE wants.

haha.

so asked bf, he said letter congratuating.

nonscence.

so, opened it up.

TADA!

cdc and dunno whatever thingy, i've gotten good progress award.

omg. didn't expected that anyhoos.

so jyea, i dunoo what's the prize or gift or whatever thingy.

last i gotten was when i was in p4, i gotten 1st in class.

sungguh happy.com.sg.

i did at least prove myself to be capable la.

only if late dad would see how i had progress.

he would be super duper proud of me.

but, im glad i work hard for it.

tom,bsk finish school late + i have something ehems!

after nearly a month not touching.

hope everything goes well. (:

gooooodnight.

irritating mcm nak mati.

2009-02-13T23:16:00.006+08:00

today is such an fcuked up day.

well, involve everyone.

well, i can't be bothered anymore.

so jyea.

so the irrtating bus is so freaking irritating today,

instd of making me cool down.

he adds to it.

+ friends are more impt.

lame tk jumpe katerkan, berjuta tahun!

ya,plus boys night outing, sesungguh merepek.

oops! tersinggung?

tk ke btol?

balik kul 12pagi?

baik ah beb, aku pon boleh eh.

so what kau jantan?

so what lame tak jumpe?

dgr2 BESOK HARI TKDE!

kalau kawan2 kau dgn matair, kau pon tk dipandang.

nak MSG PON SUSAH!

wah, kalau part2 mcm nie, BOYS OUTING?!

mcm faham.

tk ker betol?

well. suker hati la eh.
BEST FRIEND kan?

gossip mcm pompan confrm2.

overnight skali lagik bagos,

the best JADIK GAY!

went to jp just now.

everyone is buying flowers.

all shop was filled w ppl buying gifts.

ohgosh, sesungguh sakit hati.

ppl happy2 jalan w flowers,

aku? tgkkan je.

dh naseb la kan julie.

well. i miss my bros!

lets meet up hokays!

today marks the day.

2009-02-11T23:20:00.002+08:00

so, today is the day.

that i'am totally out from Ite College East.

and i've had a gr8 1 yr of study there.

plus 1 yr out for clinical attachment.

the journey was bitter sweet.

we got fights,heated arguements,all sorts.

but afterall, we're back together cause we friends, right?

to Muyas,Norsiah Bitch & Yaya.

thanks truckloads to you guys bcause all 3 of you were the pillers in school.

we worked hard, and we achieved all the grades we wanted.

the stay baq afterschool which i hated the most, the studying period in macs preparing for

exams, its all memorable.

the video we made, the efforts, it pays off.

ohgosh, i'am so gonna miss the 3 of you.

& to aishah aka minah melatah.

another gr8 friend or can be called kakak which is still young at heart,

can never fail to her smile and her laughter.

bcause she melatar. + i'll miss you too for sure. (:

to Ika aka Minah tingkap.

thanks for being such a great2 friends.

hari raya is a must we go out again alright!

to shila,alin,fazli,ain,amira.

you guys were the gr8test too.

though after some time im nt quite close,

but, you guys will remain the best.

thanks for the company, the hearing ears,the crying shoulder,

just everything.

thanks you guys.

im gonna miss you guys too. (:

& not to forget, my CP mates!

Leena,Amirah,Angeline,Ct Suhaila,

everyone of you, i've already started to miss you peeps!

and today all came w AN dress/pants.

woah, im so proud of you girls la.

so, continue working hard and achieve aite,

we'll meet up soon yah?

im so gonaaaa misssss lots and lots of my friends.

booooohooooo!

but life gotta move on and we shall still remain as friends aite!

went straight home.

i was tired of walking w heels and such.

and it was great having mama&boyfren alright.

thank you sooo much.

ohkay, ngntok.

woke up at 5 mind you!

2more days.

2009-02-09T11:54:00.002+08:00

Late dad hospital fees came.

and i got a shock!

1 day in B2 ward.
and 2 days in CCU.

its cost a TOTAL OF 21,000!

twenty-one thousand dollars.

so, tell me who's gonna pay for it?

omg, its cost like a bomb la!

if im the one working, i wont be able to pay that kind of amount too.

plus, mom's gonna end her working contract soon, mid march or early march.

i ain't sure yet.

went to kubor yest, & the dapor is ready to be soon.

ohgosh, i miss dad.

and today is the exact 30days he left us.

time flies i guess.

ohyea, watched kuda kepang on saturday,

my cuz sis byfren is involve in it.

it was a total scare. eww. i hate.

plus, after some time, i get totally bored.

and my baq hurts sitting for so long.

so i decided to lie down.

lol.

i get totally pissed when mom still wanna watch.

and some of the kudes came to us.

bloody citoot! i was getting ready to run and shout like a mad women.

then it rained, so i got the peluang to drag mom home.

hurhur, plus dawn is in half an hr time anw.

rch hme, mom's sister told something happened.

got 3 kakak flying. my cuz sis even saw it and she cried.

omggg! i will definetely run away if its me.

1 of the kepang girls kena sampok. haiyo.

lucky thing im not there to witness.

okeh, pictures not up yet cause the heroboy is in school.

gooondu boy.

and wednesday is what day?

ITS GRADUATION! (:

+i'll meet my lovely friends.

for the last time. (:

do takecare people.

face-booking!

2009-02-03T17:48:00.002+08:00

i'am waiting for the freaking-nolife-mofo bitch to strike again.

i can't wait.

indeed.

I've beeen happily lazing at home,

cleaning up those mess,

having to layan the 2 lil kiddos which came over after school.

and guess what, he said, "kakak, kiter main wrestling jom!"

and i laughed. its been tons of years since i did that.

and i having backache lately.

this ferdy kept on sitting on my back.

guess tonight i need salonpas. haa.

my home is so freaking quiet.

seriously, seems more like a ghost town.

haahaa! (:

but its true hokays.

boooooooooooooooooooooooo!

ohkays, saya nak face-booking!

fcuk you bitch!

2009-01-28T22:21:00.003+08:00

trust me bitch,

im gonna slap your forehead.

and make sure this freaking msg get

into your fcuking small brains.

happy to see me having conflicts?

yea, you cn never suceed you mofo.

get a life.

stop twist and turn your words.

and from your foul mouth!

so what your older than me?

stop being a kid mofo.

ohwell,lets see whether my bf fall into your trap huh bitch.

ohwell.

hey gf, let's bitch more about her.

sentosa-ing. (:

2009-01-28T10:16:00.002+08:00

another day passed, cny over for now.

and yea, w most of the shops close.

such a bore can?

i have yet to get my grads clothes.

ohdear, so troublsome!

and grad is like so freaking soon!

sheesh, i feel like not going, but i wanna meet my friends.

thats the thing.

and, i have yet to find any job.

so, stop asking. heh!

im still thinking of studying. seriously.

soooo, how?

let me think about it first yah?

boyfr is in school now.

happy studying boy. hurhur!

he got napha later on.

'nafpa'. hahahaha!

i was awaken by breaking pieces of cup.

dunno what happened in the kitchen.

tried to fell alseep,boyfr wokeup alrdy.

then alarm went off.

then i'am wide awake already.

still cant go back to sleeeeeep.

i need my sleeeep can?

Cny holidays, went to the Sentosa on Monday.

sheesh, trust me, the place is filled with BANGLAS!!!

omg, everywhere there is.

+ they're super irritating + currrrrry basi okeh.

im not trying to kutok or whatsoever sort.

my mommy nearly vomitted.

i guess only farisha could befriends w them.

ohgosh.

and the Q is like, omg!

like iin said, 'nak q NDP siol'.

and i was like. matiiiiii!

and it seriously was like it. ohnooo!

tsk, stupid la. all chinamens la,banglamens,dunoo whatever men.

lucky thing, i saw indra!

seriously, my bro in law nearly fought w the service girl.

lucky thing he didnt punch! hurhur.

so i quickly went to indra and said,'tolong aku pls,belikan?'

he was stocking up the tickets, and yeah, he bought it for us.

haha. after those heated arguement,we went in so not really enthu.

ewww. i still can imagine how the situation was.

and those banglas showering w/o anything on,w kain only.

disgusting sight i tell you.

lucky thing no tembel grew. ew! ew! ew!

some dont even wear underwear, ew?

kay, enough of this ppl.

i feel like puking already,

and my nasi lemak is waiting on the table.

aiyoyoyo.

boooooooo! probly im out for now.

cyou when i cyou okehs.

tc ppl.

take a look at nazrees enthu face!

picnic ramai2,banglas kalau bley join in also.

spot the bontots. look the the women at the back, showing her butt,just like naz do.(:

my cute lil flower. she got evil laughter nw. ha!

rambot tgh lari, snap plak, but the bang behind smiled. colgate. haaa!

baby's sandals. lawa kn, nk beli tkde.

mine. nie pon okeh eh? (: jumpe jugk beb.

thats me&baby.

and this is the boyfr. tk habes w main pasir.

w the broinlaw. haa! (:

kay, home time.

tgk Q bus, all bangs. hahaha! dark beb.

tooooodles. (:

another month w bf.(:

2009-01-25T23:54:00.004+08:00

Hello Lovelies.

1st thing 1st.

Happy Monthsary Boyfren. (:

another month has pass.

and i'am uber happy to be w this boy.

but his super irritating at times.

super duper irritating!!

(die tgh kpo2 bace kt sbelah, sibok!)

suke sgt menyakat org.

he can never tak kacau.

grrr!

if only i can eat him up,

i only bite! haha!

soooooo,

i've gotten my long finding nike slippers.

bcause all my slippers need to be thrown in the bin.

its pink you knw. haha!

happy pe. thanks to gf &her bf for the company.

and bf is lazy to help me search for the slippers!

sheeeeesh.

nvm, its already been found!

nearly search the whole spore!

*okey,bedek!*

but serious la, many places,

all sold out. mcm pam.

and, im still shaking leg at home.

still searching for a job.

but mama is kind enough to sponser me.

heeeee. (:

a lil bit walaupon tak byk hokays.

ive been at homee for the past few days.

boredom kills! kills more when im alone

and bf is in school.

shit.

okeh.

Happy Lunar New Year.

Tomorrow, Gerhana bulan.

a ring round the moon? sun?

i dunno.

lets see tomorrow.

its gonna be in spore.

so, loookout ppl.

4plus till 630pm if im nt wrng.??

tooodles ppl!

boring,aku boring!

2009-01-21T15:20:00.003+08:00

im so dead bored.

kes boring like wanna die sia.

bf is so irritating.

finish at 12.

wait to go jam 330.

stupid. waste time sia you.

im like a kuku dunoo what should i do next.

stoooopid!

i never posted like this nonscence b4.

cause im so irritated and im so freaking bored.

baaaaaaaaaah!

overdue pictures for now.

muker mcm nabey cb lah sey.

haa. satu2 prgai mcm cb pagi2 buta.

all pasal nak main bowling.!

haaa!

thanks everyone.

2009-01-16T14:11:00.003+08:00

first & foremost.
i just wanna say thanks to you guys.
for the support and concern.

i'am doing well for now.
still sick and still feeling sick.
no signs of recovering at all.
sooon i guess.

kenduri all over,
awaiting the 40days.
the ustaz handsome.
haa, turned out to be iin's friend.
sharing with gf. (:

aku jahat. haa.
i have yet to find any job yet.
still free.
happy2 first.
be with mom 1st.
(:

i passed.
yay.

thats all.
takecare.

i lost the most precious thing on earth.

2009-01-12T11:59:00.003+08:00

it was shocking.
for the whole night i slept over at SGH.
every few hours i went in to the CCU to take a look at him.
he complaints, toss and turn.
with wires everywhere.
its a total pity i tell you.

he told me, "Julie,amek wheelchair ayah,ayah nak balik"
saying he wants to go home and take his wheelchair.
i didn't know which home he wanted to go to.
i told him to read prayers and told him to get well and
fight back and we can go home together.

mom came to take over my shift.
i had just fallen about 5mins ago when mom tapped me,
saying his condition worsen.
i felt worst.
doctor said they need to put him to sleep and shock him.
as a nurse, you tell me, how hurtful it is.
the whole day, 4 times they shock him.
tell me, isnt he suffering? then, he had mild stroke.
his speech slurred.
i felt the world is crashing on me.
he told mom, he has diffculty in talking,
he wants to talk.

each time i stepped into the room.
my tears would just run down.
i didnt want to show him my sadness.
i had a huge breakdown at night.
my cuzzie sis was such a kay-po!
and i burst out. i shouted, i cried.
just like i did when i was in primary school.
venting everything out.

i know that i would lose him anytime.
but i was praying hard he gets well and come home.
that night, the nurses didnt allow us to go in since
lots of my cuzzins went to visit him.
i saw him mumbling in the air.
its such a pity i tell you,really2.
how depress,heartbroken to see him in that condition.
and i believe my dad is such a strong man.

at 430am,doc said his bp is way low.
his unconscious. and they can't do anything anymore.
only thing his heart is still pumping.
my mother was really helpless.
she was in total sadness and while i was calling my aunts.
she drop down. she was drained out.
i know i had to be strong, i told her its all suratan.

i tried my very3 best not to let tears run down.
but i failed.
im such a failure. i see my mom sobbing hard.
everyone with tears.
i broke down again. gf & bf was there w me.
it really2 hurts me to see him in that condition.
its sucks to the core.
mom told him to mengucap, bace2 everything.
and mom told me, tears ran down.
but his unconscious but he can still hear us.

my cuz bro rushed us when his heartrate started dropping.
i hold his hands. and i prayed hard.
we read prayers for him.
and out of a sudden, less then 1min,
his heartrate, 0. and machine started beeping.
from that moment, i knew.
i lost my daddy.
i ran out of the room, and i burst on gf shoulder.
i never thought things would turn out this way as it is.
my energy was drained, i felt so dizzy.
i knowed his sufferings are over.
after 13yrs of all the suffering for him, its over.

the nurses told us to enter. the last time we get to see him.
i kissed him,for the very last time.
he was like sleeping peacefully.
muke dia tenang in other words.
he gets to see evryone he wanted to see.
tears refuse to stop flowing.

settled everything.casket.
reach home, cleaning dad for the last time.
and i was finding for my bf,
i didnt know where he went.
then 1 of my cuz said,
bf was helping w the cleaning up.
and i was kinda surprised.
unexpected.

mom was not allow to follow to cemetry.
so the sisters went.
went to mesjid darussalam for friday prayers.
then straight to cemetry.
i was standing so near when burying.
i was stnding near the head.
i saw everything.
its so hard to let me dad go.
i know i have to, but its hard.
my cuzbro lend me his shoulder.
and he told me to be strong.
i still remembered vividly those moments.

back home for thalil.
and my 1st sister and bro inlaw slept over.
+ bf.
the 1st night sucks.
i missed him terribly.
i cried myslf to sleep.

and the other nights, i read prayers for him.
bt i had sleepless night.
i kept remembering him at the hospital,at home,at the cemetry.
just everything.
yest had another kenduri.
and this coming thurs.
anyone is free, you could just come over.

now, i only have my mom.
i need her,and shes my everything.
you know,my house is usually quiet.
unless my godbros or my niece is here.
if nt, it would be so quiet just like ghostown.
now, it would be quieter.
just me and mom in a huge house.
how?
i'll adapt to it soon.

out of the 2 sisters i have,
i know, my dad pampered me the most.
they're still my sister related to dad.
i only have 1 mom ohkay.
trust me, you can never find another dad like him in this world.
everything i ever asked for,he would buy it for me.
since i was a little kid.

each time i would want something, i wouldnt budge frm there
till i get it.
if not, i would make a scene.
so,everything i want, i would still get it.
by hook or crook, i'll get it, trust me.
till now, i have this attitude. its already stucked.
and dad loved me the most.
he doesnt need to tell me, but i would know.

but, i hadnt fulfill his wish.
he wanted me to have my driving license.
it would be nice if hes still arnd seeing me pass my TP.
but, his gone too early, even bfore i pass anything.
next, he wants me to continue to study, just study and study.
he puts aside money just for me to further my study.

which dad would do that?

he never beat me before, he never shout at me before.
he never scolded me upside down before.
my dad is superb. totally.

enough of all this sadness.
i'am learning to let go.
semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat.

sorry to my friends. i really2 thought you guys wouldnt bother.
+ i forget about telling you guys.
but, i was wrong.
thanks for the concern.
just a huge thanks to each and every one of you there.
its really2 much appreciated.

ariff,azhar, thanks for coming down on that time itself.
muyas,yaya, thanks for coming down yest for kenduri.

i appreciate it lots.
the tags,the msges,the calls.
thanks you guys.

and to bf, tyvm for everything.
acmpying me at the hospital.
helping to uruskan everything.
the kenduri.
thank you so much bf.
im blessed to have a bf like you.
thank you nazree. ily.

and to gf, thanks truckloads for being there for me
for all those moments.
comforting me and such.
helping me.
thanks you truckloads.
youre appreciated.
thanks gf. ily.

takecareppl, yea?

julie rindu sangat dengan ayah.
julie sayang ayah.

zzzzz!

2009-01-08T06:34:00.002+08:00

time check: 0635hours.
current location: SGH.

daddy got admitted. and im praying hard he gets well.
its such a pity to see him in that condition.
plus, it saddens me like nobodys business.
well. i love my daddy,of course. :(

i volunteered to takecare of daddy.
so, im wide awake currently now.
and lucky thing, i got my precious boy accmpying me.
boo. im so sleepy. seriously.
i only had half hr of sleep throughout the whole night.

mommy's coming soon to take over shift.
*yawns*

takecare ppl.

it sucks to be alone. :(

2009-01-06T00:07:00.004+08:00

tell me who should i go to when i have problems?

nobody but myself.

see. it sucks not to have any siblings.

so,i'll talk to myself?

and it sucks when you have nobody to turn to when u need

someone to talk too.

there is,

my god-brother. but, his in camp.

but, tysm for lending me the listening ear.

gf?

she's sick.

i'am feeling so awful. since saturday, till now.

apologies for the stucked up face during chalet.

my mood was totally inside the drain.

it sucks to keep it and having to absorb another every moment.

thanks to the chalet,bcause i had to undergo all this not supposely to happen.

yes indeed.

i had such a huge amout of teardrops early in the morning.

and im lacking of sleep.

eyebags are sure getting darker.

it sucks,seriously.

i guess, it was the worst chalet ever so far.

and its the starting of the year.

how sucky.

daddy is sick again, he groans in pain every moment.

wanting to send to hosp, he refused as usual.

mommy is lacking of sleep & feeling sick too.

and i'am the only one having to face this two.

omg, and again, it sucks. seriously. haiz.

*speechless*

how much of stress i have to bear?

tell me?

and to you,

i wasn't ready for all your rubbish i had to face.

from the early morning, i had to tolerate your rubbish.

i wouldn't want to spoil your day,so i had to just swallow it.

but each time, youre stepping on my head,more&more.

till, it reach the max point.

countless number of ppl spoiled my mood/day.

thanks la huh.

i didn't believe you didn't remembered me?

thanks. its was a total unbelieveable.

such a letdown.

it pierced directly into my heart.

and it hurts a lot more.

shy being condemned?

face it. i need to let it out.

you did that to me, you face it.

i had a morning walk on sunday, 3am.

yes, alone. read that again, ALONE.

yeay, walked through downtown, went to cheers.

walked through the carpark.

w the freaking strong wind blowing directly on my face.

how i wish im problem free.

and please, stop making me angry.

stop hurting me.

i breakdown easily and i giveup too.

my patience level is low.

please, stop testing my patience,

i beg you.

i got nothing more i could say.

pictures will be up when i feel better.

goodnight.

the 2009, a new year ahead.

2009-01-01T23:59:00.003+08:00

GOODBYE 2008, HELLO 2009.

it has been a hectic year i should say.

but, wasn't that pathetic and bad.

bcause each days counts and sure there's a gd n bd ones.

for me, its was not really a bad one.

but,im yearning for a much more better years/days ahead.

yes.

and much more wishes ahead.

yep.

but, im gay at every end of years.

i didn't know why.

this year probly i've ended my nursing course.

which im so proud and happy.

was certainly a loong and hard journey to be in nursing.

but, i've suceeded.

thanks to friends and loves for the encouragement.

so, in 2009.

i need to get a stable career. or should i say job.

after earning enough cash, back to school.

hoping to get my license by mid of this year.

and in 2010, my bike license.

and be like a 19 year old.

omg, im so freaking old!

eww!

but i'am gonna be sad for sure.

definately,bcause certainly bf goonaa be called up for NS!

shit.shit.shit.

my bf is like glue ohkay.

he sticks w me each day and im enjoying his company.

kater anak sorang what.

right,right.? (:

but its alright.

ivmbf. (:

i'am sure i will survive.

right liyana right?

hurhur.

so yesterday, i was forced by boyfren to marina for countdown.

i was so freaking sure its gonna be so freaking crowded.

and i was so right.

boyfren insisted,since its his bdae, i had to go.

ohyeay,boyfren mummy treated to swensens.

tyvm aunt.:)

and meet up w the gf,liyana and the mat curly fries.

so unwanted things happen as usual.right b2 countdown.

bcause some bitch will always remain as bitch.

ohwell.

it was freaking tiring, serious shit.

and tomorrow, gonna book in for chalet.

to celebrate byfrns bdae and my nephwe bdae.

if anyone wanna come down, youre invited.

just beep me. (:

im sure its gonna lots and lots of fun. yays!

i wanna play my beloved psp.

cake mania baybeh. (:

goodnight lovelies.

Last but not least.

HAPPY 2OTH BIRTHDAY BOYFREN!

my oh my, his getting old.

neh neh nie poo poo!

be like me, im just 18.

hurhur.

hope you have a gr8 day bf.

thanks for everything.

& please tc of the slippers ohkay!

ily!

gr8day

2008-12-28T00:41:00.002+08:00

it was indeed a great day yesterday.
yeay, saturday which has just passed.
it was filled w laughter.
and seriously it was.

started off w early in the morning having to do practice.
and having to wait 45mins for bf to arrive.
omg. i felt like knocking his head seh.
then off to fetch dadday at hospital.
back home. such mundane saturday.

so, went home, and sleep!
bcause of the anitibiotic i felt drowsy.
plus, im well!
thanks to SGH medication.
i went to a&e department all bcause i couldnt take it any longer.
bf send me as mum need to admit daddy.
but, it was a fast one, super fast. haha.

then, after 3 rounds of medication.
i feel better. and my appetite is back!
yipe. i lost a lil fats ard the tummy.
but its gg to grow baq. sheesh.

oh, yeay.
get baq. bf was watching mtv all the way.
at 4 or 5 pm, somebody rang the doorbell.
mom and bf opned, they saw balloon.
and thought my godbro put it there.
hurhur.
then salihins face appear. haha.
followed by gf. wasnt expecting at all.
tysm for the cute2 balloon.
just like me when im sick.
i will just probly lay down.

(:

then decided to tag them alng.
we went public. after such a long period of time.
hurhur. gr8!
then they had dinner and me & gf went to grab something for bf present.
bcause i will certainly have no time.
whever i go, there will be boyfren.
so, i rather just buy and give it to him. (:

then proceeded to suntec. to play arcade.
hurhur. its was seriously gr8. and AWESOME!
esp the 2 seater car which could exchnge driver.
gurls vs guys. we nearly win, bt we didnt.
and we play the sweets machine. those mentos sweets.
it was a total awesome shit seriously.
after such a long time since i last played that.
omg. its so freakingfunny and fun la.

iin hit the jackpot. yana choose the tigger.
told her to bring it home, she refused.
haha. so, i shall not miss the chance.
tysm u guys.
and its was total awesome at the arcade tooo.
seriously. omg.
its like the happiest day of my life. but, nt really la.
bcause we were like shouting2 to each other and such.
and we didnt notice ppl bhind looking at us play. hurhur!
(:
funny.

to you guys,
tysm. its was a total awesome i shall say.
soon aite. to YES man. (:
and night safari.
preety soooooon! (:

goodnight lovelies.
(:

16mthsary

2008-12-25T00:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 16 MONTHSARY BF. (:

Boyfren means the world to me tau! (:

Tada,we turned 16. yipeeyaayaa.

mcm happy gitu eh, padehal2. hurhur.

well2.

dearest boyfren ku, kamu amat disayang dan slalu tersayng.

like duh, his the greatest you know.

just like my next mommy.

but, nono, he will always be the lovely boy.

and his a rare gem. not easily found in thousands.

and thats the reason why im glad and blessed to have someone like him.

words can't describe everything.

you're the most loveliest boyfren i ever had.

and guide me to the right path whenever i go astray.

be my light at the end of each dark tunnel.

and i'll pray for you every moment,

hoping everything would be safe and sound.

boyfren.

i love you truckloads, lorryloads and whatsoever loads alright.

thank you for everything.

and for the green carebear to cheer me up today.

ilysm hunneh. (:

done. (:

i feel loved.

heh.

goodnight. (:

(:

2008-12-24T16:00:00.002+08:00

alright, just let me clear this air around here okey?

its a fact when gf said, if somebody else were to be around,

i wouldnt want to tag along.

its so true. yes i admit.

but you once said you wanted to bring us there aint you?

but,after you got your pay, u need to settle your bills,

give part of it to your dad and stuffs.

so, we don't actually bother.

its nothing major to us anyway.

and the actual fact is, we don't bother where you guys wanna go alright.

after few months of only 4 or 5 times contacting w each other.

i realised. just 1 thing. after so many years we've been close together.

just 1 pharse.

you have your own life to lead.

i have my own life to lead too.

i can't depend on you.

neither can you depend on me right?

after 2 years im in nursing,

don't tell me you dunno how my shifts are right?

and i get damn tired every morning shift.

how am i suppose to go out?

you want to, sure,i'll get moodswing arnd the clock.

and im sure,

we are the ones who usually had to call you guys out.

realised that? and now, we didnt do that,

thats the reason why u said youre the one who need to ask us out.

any problems nowadays, you turn to your workmates, your boyfren.

not me anymore.

and thats the reason why. i know.

probly you doesnt want to burden me more,

but last time, youre able to share it w me anyway.

i bear no grudges alright.

to anyone, whoever alright.

im just saying on what i've been keeping for the past months.

but i'll hope this and that ends here.

i'am looking forward to chalet and hoping to have a gr8 time w u guys.

+ sorry peeps for the lack of updates of melacca trip.

all because im so freaking sick and feel-like-dying. hush.

on tuesday morning, 6am, i got up,and starting vomit,

ewww! its been donkey years i've vomitted.

probly i saw sis vomited on sunday. hurhur.

and i started to have diarhoea.

i ran up and down to the toilet.

all i did was sleeep. and i didnt even munch on anything the whole day.

mum called,she took half day, as she felt sick too.

at home, she had the same symptms as me too.

evening, went to the dr.

she said we had very bad food poisoning till we vomitted.

my fever shot up to 38.9.

but still, we didn't know what food causes it.

she gave me and mummy injection, buscopan.

and after which, i slept all the way.

my head was freaking heavy, and guess what,

walking to the kitchen, felt like walking to jurong.

while walking to dr, felt like travelling to pr.

how pathethic.

and i felt so lifeless. seriously.

im left w no energy left. how pathetic can that be.

i hate decembers, i will always fall sick this point of time.

and nazree's bdae is coming up. and i have yet to buy him anything.

headache. bleargh.

and nazree has been kind enough to buy me minitoons sweets.

tyvm ya nazreeee.

my head is baq spinning.

rest once again.

merry xmas!

(:

2008-12-22T00:04:00.002+08:00

apologies for the late entry cum post once again.
hasn't any free time lately.

so, let's start off.
1st of all.

congrates to my nursing mates,JR0701 batch,
as all has already passed out.
well. each and everyone has grown.
and now,
all of us has ended the 2 years nursing course in ite.

oh gawd, how unbelievable can that be?
i'am done with school. nursing. 2 yrs?

thats totally a fast one.
and it has been a pleasant journey.
despites all the arguements,noises,cursing everywhere.
we're still friends anyway.

so,
I'VE GRADUATED! (:
not yet the grad ceremony. hurhur.

anyhoos, i'am now not that keen w paramedics after what has happened today.
prolly i'am mentally fit to become one.
all bcause...

my story comes in now. hurhur.

i had just returned from melacca w family, sister,broinlaw,bf.
we rented a car instead bcause my mummy car couldnt fit in.
so a bigger car instd. damn.
the car sucks to the core anyway.

we went to return at woodlands, and park the car.
drop the key in the owners postbox.
wanting to hail a taxi.
we saw somebody lying on the road.
and somehow, me,mum,broinlaw & bf was keen to see.
kpo what.
we thought a bangla has just met w an accident,
instd, it was a malay women. and a malay man.
their motorbike was at the other side of the road.
omg. my heart jumped like seriously.

i felt useless as i just stood there and see, and only 1 or 2 ppl are helping.
and suddenly, broinlaw went over.
banglas and chinamen were just looking and helping to control the traffic.
and the crowd started to gather more and more.
broinlaw salam2 and i somehow decided to follow.
and the women stood there helplessly,couldnt move.
she had abrasion,lacration,and some deep cut.
all i could do there was to comfort her.

her husband was a few metres away,
but i didnt came over to help him.
bcause i didnt feel comfortable. so, i just stood there w bro in law.
talking to her. conforting her.

paramedics arrived 10 mins.
and over the other side, there's a women or men lying too.
i didnt knw wht haappened to the other side.
and the 1st ambulance took the 1st casualty away.
and 1 of the paramedic was the ITE trainee.
she was sweating and running all over the place.
and i started imagining if it were to be me.
oh dear.
2nd one came, and took her husband 1st.
i just could help a little though.

infact, i wouldnt want to kpo.
ppl would say.macm pam.
hurhur.

ohwell, its over anyway.
after sending sister home.
i witnessed another accident.
4 or 5 cars collided and a taxi standing on the top.
how scary? tell me?

today was such a remembrance.
serious shit.
its the 1st time to everything.
boooooo!

shall elaborate sooner.
bcause i need to sleep.
goodnight.

the super hot day. and useless aircon. hurhur

odw home. too bored huh.

hotel puri. baba&nyoya place. nicenice!

and the black lenses i had to use. haa.

(:

its love,hate and just everything

work can never not be tired!

*blow dusts*

bay-bee, sayang!

weekends are loooovee..

its such a tiring week.

PMU!PMU!

i'am loving the days.

tiring but FUN weekends.

saturday kills!

TGIF tomorrow! (:

not-so-perfect month.

well spent sunday with family!

baybee nazree is <3!

bay-bee Nazree is <3!

what a day.

(:

<3!

thank you.

Nazree, I miss you, effiing much.

bf, i <3 you!

breakdown soon.

Happy TWO years Hunneh.

tired,busy!

see the moon & the stars

1st frightening experience.

love the weekends.

Haaaapppy Day! (:

thanks nazree! (:

(:

you're rubbish.

thanks Zulaiha. <3!

Death is a painful thing.

tireddddd~

yeay!

(:

*Laalaaalaaa*

sickkkkk!

Honda. Honda. Honda. ((:

laaaalaaaa!

the happiest thing that could ever happen. :)

curse.curse.curse.

???

HOLIDAY NOOOH! ((:

HOLIDAY! ((:

its a happy2 day!

(:

riding w bf's bro was gr8! ((:

cam-whoriiing!

gerek.com.sg (:

dad, i'am so missing you. :'(

i love you.

(:

lovely day today.

he added colours to my boring life. (:

baking lapis! booo!

Spore expo, halal fair. (:

Food Fair, Come down yea?

love the love ones.

Happy Monthsary.(:

ily my bf!

happy.com

irritating mcm nak mati.

today marks the day.

2more days.

face-booking!

fcuk you bitch!

sentosa-ing. (:

another month w bf.(:

boring,aku boring!

thanks everyone.

i lost the most precious thing on earth.

zzzzz!

it sucks to be alone. :(

the 2009, a new year ahead.

gr8day

16mthsary

(:

(:

blow dusts

Laalaaalaaa